Would never have happened if still drinking...
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Would never have happened if still drinking...
I have just heard that I have successfully secured employment which I will commence next week.
I have come such a long way, and it feels great to be moving in a positive direction after years of backpedalling and not having any sense of direction in my life. This will enable me to buy a car and get driving again, something which took me to a new low when I lost my license through drink driving. Will enable me to start getting my self-esteem back in general, being unemployed does nothing for your sense of identity and selfrespect. I also wan't to go to University again next September and so can start looking at Courses ( I want to do something in Counselling as a career, likely drugs/alcohol, as I feel like I can use my own experiences to try to help others).
All this has come about because I have made the commitment to actively live a sober life at all costs, I cannot get out of bed when drinking let alone think about a productive future, I am so grateful I have realised I am an alcoholic at my age now whils't I can still turn my life round. It is difficult at times, especially being young, but the short buzz I get from booze is never worth the total mayhem it causes to my mind and life in general, I just feel positive and good about myself at the moment, rather than dirty and a slave to a chemical.
It is also a first today because everytime previously when I have ever received any good news,I would have been celebrating by getting smashed... Not today!! I am feeling good at the moment and know this is 100% as a result of sobriety and not being shackled to my mind being well and truly F*cked up after a heavy binge, I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that crap anymore, "just for Today".
peace and Love xxx
I have come such a long way, and it feels great to be moving in a positive direction after years of backpedalling and not having any sense of direction in my life. This will enable me to buy a car and get driving again, something which took me to a new low when I lost my license through drink driving. Will enable me to start getting my self-esteem back in general, being unemployed does nothing for your sense of identity and selfrespect. I also wan't to go to University again next September and so can start looking at Courses ( I want to do something in Counselling as a career, likely drugs/alcohol, as I feel like I can use my own experiences to try to help others).
All this has come about because I have made the commitment to actively live a sober life at all costs, I cannot get out of bed when drinking let alone think about a productive future, I am so grateful I have realised I am an alcoholic at my age now whils't I can still turn my life round. It is difficult at times, especially being young, but the short buzz I get from booze is never worth the total mayhem it causes to my mind and life in general, I just feel positive and good about myself at the moment, rather than dirty and a slave to a chemical.
It is also a first today because everytime previously when I have ever received any good news,I would have been celebrating by getting smashed... Not today!! I am feeling good at the moment and know this is 100% as a result of sobriety and not being shackled to my mind being well and truly F*cked up after a heavy binge, I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that crap anymore, "just for Today".
peace and Love xxx
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There you go, how cool is that...i am very happy for you:-)
Counselling sounds like the sort of career that nicely avoids the ****** rat race whilst helping other people...great choice, although if you decide to do something else along the way that's good too:-)
Nice one!
Counselling sounds like the sort of career that nicely avoids the ****** rat race whilst helping other people...great choice, although if you decide to do something else along the way that's good too:-)
Nice one!
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Sorry, I've just been following your story rather than actually posting or doing anything useful... But I just wanted to say that this has made my day as well! I am so very happy for you! I like it when the good guys who are trying hard win 
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Originally Posted by NEOMARXIST 
I have come such a long way, and it feels great to be moving in a positive direction after years of backpedalling and not having any sense of direction in my life.
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Congrats on the job!!! I was recently able to land a job that I never would have had a shot at if I were still smoking pot constatly, as I used to. I stayed stuck in a job I hated and was very emotionally bad for me for almost 4 years, primarily because I knew I couldn't pass the drug test needed to get a job I wanted.
I gotta say it never felt so good to pi$$ in a cup as it did when I was doing it to get the job I had coveted for the last couple of years, knowing that, without a doubt, it would come back clean!!!
Though it doesn't sound like you are working your "dream" job (I don't even know what that would be for me anymore!!) you are taking positive steps in the right direction. I have a similar "rebelous" streak in me as you seem to, and it has often proven to be my undoing. I'm starting to learn how to "work within the system" while still maintaining my individuality and personality. Congrats again!!! It was great to hear, especially after hearing how let down you were after your first interview. Take care!!!
I gotta say it never felt so good to pi$$ in a cup as it did when I was doing it to get the job I had coveted for the last couple of years, knowing that, without a doubt, it would come back clean!!!
Though it doesn't sound like you are working your "dream" job (I don't even know what that would be for me anymore!!) you are taking positive steps in the right direction. I have a similar "rebelous" streak in me as you seem to, and it has often proven to be my undoing. I'm starting to learn how to "work within the system" while still maintaining my individuality and personality. Congrats again!!! It was great to hear, especially after hearing how let down you were after your first interview. Take care!!!
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