Hi All!!!
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Join Date: Aug 2009
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Hi All!!!
Where to begin...
Wednesday afternoon, nearing the end of the 1.5L bottle of vodka I started the day before I started to panic that I would be done with the bottle before bedtime but I was too drunk to get into the car and drive to the store to get a new one. I weighed my options...try to sleep the alcohol off for a while so I was sober enough to go by more or order bottles of wine delivered from my Chinese food place at $25.00 each. Then I heard a voice from inside saying choose "c" don't drink anymore. It was if my body and my mind were begging not to be poisoned anymore.
Over the past few years I had gotten into a routine of drinking sun up to sun down. I have a job where I can work from home so it was easy to get away with. I live alone so, again, my drinking was easy to hide. But I have started finding excuses to not attend in-person meetings at work, spend time with my family (and I have two beautiful nieces, mom and dad that I love and miss), exercise (I've gained like 40 pounds and I used to be HOT) and started not seeing friends because I feel self conscience about my weight. So I have become a bit of a recluse, the opposite of my normal extraverted personality. My daily in person conversation was with the guy at the liquor store. It's said when the give you free bottles of alcohol for Christmas or for just being such a great customer.
I read on the Internet (so it must be true) that people die trying to detox. That knowledge keep me from stopping for so long. Think about that logic...I am going to keep doing something that is killing me so I don't die. Yeah...
I am now starting my third full day without drinking and I'm scared. Im tired. I'm anxious. My heart beats fast. No nausea though (woo hoo!). I tried to go down to the gym in my building this morning and only made it about 15 minutes before feeling really dizzy. May hold off on that for a while. Are these feelings normal? When will they end? I don't want to drink anymore but I want to know if I will feel normal again. I am perfectly fine laying in bed under the covers for a few days to ride out the rough patch (I took time off from work just in case I needed to chill).
I'm hoping that there are others that are going through or have gone through this and can reassure me that this will pass and it is possible to get life back on track.
Anyway, hi all!! That's the beginning of my story and it felt good to get that out! I'm really looking forward to being part of the community, if you will have me.
Wednesday afternoon, nearing the end of the 1.5L bottle of vodka I started the day before I started to panic that I would be done with the bottle before bedtime but I was too drunk to get into the car and drive to the store to get a new one. I weighed my options...try to sleep the alcohol off for a while so I was sober enough to go by more or order bottles of wine delivered from my Chinese food place at $25.00 each. Then I heard a voice from inside saying choose "c" don't drink anymore. It was if my body and my mind were begging not to be poisoned anymore.
Over the past few years I had gotten into a routine of drinking sun up to sun down. I have a job where I can work from home so it was easy to get away with. I live alone so, again, my drinking was easy to hide. But I have started finding excuses to not attend in-person meetings at work, spend time with my family (and I have two beautiful nieces, mom and dad that I love and miss), exercise (I've gained like 40 pounds and I used to be HOT) and started not seeing friends because I feel self conscience about my weight. So I have become a bit of a recluse, the opposite of my normal extraverted personality. My daily in person conversation was with the guy at the liquor store. It's said when the give you free bottles of alcohol for Christmas or for just being such a great customer.
I read on the Internet (so it must be true) that people die trying to detox. That knowledge keep me from stopping for so long. Think about that logic...I am going to keep doing something that is killing me so I don't die. Yeah...
I am now starting my third full day without drinking and I'm scared. Im tired. I'm anxious. My heart beats fast. No nausea though (woo hoo!). I tried to go down to the gym in my building this morning and only made it about 15 minutes before feeling really dizzy. May hold off on that for a while. Are these feelings normal? When will they end? I don't want to drink anymore but I want to know if I will feel normal again. I am perfectly fine laying in bed under the covers for a few days to ride out the rough patch (I took time off from work just in case I needed to chill).
I'm hoping that there are others that are going through or have gone through this and can reassure me that this will pass and it is possible to get life back on track.
Anyway, hi all!! That's the beginning of my story and it felt good to get that out! I'm really looking forward to being part of the community, if you will have me.
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Join Date: Aug 2009
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Hi Carlisle, and welcome.
I'm barely starting again for the third time since July--don't recommend--but I can attest: yup, what you're going through is somewhat normal. I didn't get nausea either, but a whole lot of other symptoms that could be summed up as a b- of a flu with little muscle spasms. You might want to check with your doctor about all of this (seriously), and/or an ER. It's, um, possibly fatal to come off of that much drinking. My doctor gave me a pill to reduce the possibility of seizures.
I've been staying away from everything but light exercise, and I am physically fit. Just don't want to put my heart through any more stress than it's going through this month. Again, not a doctor, but you might want to talk to yours about exercising--they know you better than strangers.
And yeah, with me, the symptoms'd go away by about day 8 or 9 as I recall. Check some of the other posts, there are about 50 in the last month that go over a lot of other peoples' experiences, some better some worse.
Can't tell you what happens after day 11, but others here can.
Although, noticing the date (blushes), most people say the symptoms are significantly lessened by this time. Again, give it a few more and you should be alright. Getting your life back on track... um, yeah. I can't tell you yet & won't presume to.
Somebody real smart will be coming by, no doubt. Read up in the meantime. Lots of good advice here from a lot of different minds. Good luck!
I'm barely starting again for the third time since July--don't recommend--but I can attest: yup, what you're going through is somewhat normal. I didn't get nausea either, but a whole lot of other symptoms that could be summed up as a b- of a flu with little muscle spasms. You might want to check with your doctor about all of this (seriously), and/or an ER. It's, um, possibly fatal to come off of that much drinking. My doctor gave me a pill to reduce the possibility of seizures.
I've been staying away from everything but light exercise, and I am physically fit. Just don't want to put my heart through any more stress than it's going through this month. Again, not a doctor, but you might want to talk to yours about exercising--they know you better than strangers.
And yeah, with me, the symptoms'd go away by about day 8 or 9 as I recall. Check some of the other posts, there are about 50 in the last month that go over a lot of other peoples' experiences, some better some worse.
Can't tell you what happens after day 11, but others here can.
Although, noticing the date (blushes), most people say the symptoms are significantly lessened by this time. Again, give it a few more and you should be alright. Getting your life back on track... um, yeah. I can't tell you yet & won't presume to.
Somebody real smart will be coming by, no doubt. Read up in the meantime. Lots of good advice here from a lot of different minds. Good luck!
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Hi Carlisle, what you are feeling is normal and it will get better, that I can promise you as long as you don't pick up. Congratulations on 3 days sober, you are in for the ride of your life just hang on!!
Welcome to SR, it is really a wonderful forum.
Welcome to SR, it is really a wonderful forum.
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Originally Posted by Believe808 
Hi Carlisle, what you are feeling is normal and it will get better, that I can promise you as long as you don't pick up. Congratulations on 3 days sober, you are in for the ride of your life just hang on!!
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Hi Carlisle,congrats on being sober...But i would advise u 2 go 2 ur GP & he will give u some meds 2 relieve the nasty symptoms u r experiencing!!!He may suggest u r supervised whilst on the medication because u cud b a bit forgetful!!!Think about it..if ur symptoms worsen u cud b tempted 2 relapse...GOODLUCK...xx
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Hey Carlisle!! Wanted to say "hey" and welcome.
Have you been to an AA meeting? The plan to get sober is a great one however I know when I was where you were at I'd get to feeling good and pick up again. I hope you'll go and find a sponsor at the very least??????? Hiding up in your home like that is going to allow you to keep doing what you're doing.
I really wish you the best. Keep posting and reading, this site is great for support, insight, experience and suggestions.
Have you been to an AA meeting? The plan to get sober is a great one however I know when I was where you were at I'd get to feeling good and pick up again. I hope you'll go and find a sponsor at the very least??????? Hiding up in your home like that is going to allow you to keep doing what you're doing.
I really wish you the best. Keep posting and reading, this site is great for support, insight, experience and suggestions.
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Join Date: Aug 2009
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Thanks to everyone for your kind and welcoming words!
I finally had a good nights sleep for the first time in a while.
I have no urge to drink. I made these little stickies about how alcohol made me feel and hung them around. I laugh when I look at them. Stuff like "alcohol sucks", "alcohol made me fat", "alcohol ruined my health, my relationships", "alcohol is dangerous", "alcohol will kill me" etc.
I don't know if I will go to AA. I recently (about 2 years ago) moved out of the big city to the burbs so, thankfully, most of my hard core party friends are not around and the friends I do have in close proximity drink little to no alcohol (hence me drinking alone a lot). I may try surrounding myself with them first when I am ready. That way it won't be such a big deal if I'm not drinking. In fact most of them would be like "good for you, wanna go to walk the trails or play tennis?".
(Amazingly I was able to leave my hard core party habits like coke and pot in the city without even a second thought or craving. And I did a lot of coke. If only I had thought to leave the alcohol behind as well.)
Depending how I feel later I'm going to go visit the family. My niece wrote me an email saying she missed me and wanted to introduce me to her new hamster.
For now I am just happy to feel physically better and rested.
One day at a time.
I finally had a good nights sleep for the first time in a while.
I have no urge to drink. I made these little stickies about how alcohol made me feel and hung them around. I laugh when I look at them. Stuff like "alcohol sucks", "alcohol made me fat", "alcohol ruined my health, my relationships", "alcohol is dangerous", "alcohol will kill me" etc.
I don't know if I will go to AA. I recently (about 2 years ago) moved out of the big city to the burbs so, thankfully, most of my hard core party friends are not around and the friends I do have in close proximity drink little to no alcohol (hence me drinking alone a lot). I may try surrounding myself with them first when I am ready. That way it won't be such a big deal if I'm not drinking. In fact most of them would be like "good for you, wanna go to walk the trails or play tennis?".
(Amazingly I was able to leave my hard core party habits like coke and pot in the city without even a second thought or craving. And I did a lot of coke. If only I had thought to leave the alcohol behind as well.)
Depending how I feel later I'm going to go visit the family. My niece wrote me an email saying she missed me and wanted to introduce me to her new hamster.
For now I am just happy to feel physically better and rested.
One day at a time.
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