Aysha

I heard this song on my home from the pdoc today.
What a wonderful visit. He has told me to start the process of my procedure because he is impressed with my progress of everything. He denied me in March when I totally flipped my wig and was on that month long binge. It made me angry. I was so mad at myself and him for what I thought was "condemning" me for a mistake.
He told me he can see a huge difference in me. I dont seem depressed anymore. And that the ACTIONS I have been taking here lately say alot.
He didnt come to this conclusion..He made a point to tell me this..From anything I said to him. It was all from his observations of me. How my body language was speaking to him. He said I seem more relaxed, confident, motivated. And also by the things I have done, as far as school, losing some weight on my own and my persistance have all impressed him.

I will tell you all that these past couple months have been phenominal.
And it didnt just happen on its own. I have had my slips. But I have bounced right back and kept fighting. I am making things happen instead os just idling by.
I will be honest and say that I thought once I stopped using that everything would just magically happen on its own. I do believe things will fall into place. But you gotta take action. You just have to make a balance and do the unthinkable and dare to get up and fight for life.

Now this song here may seem off for some..especially when you read the lyrics. I am not directing it at anyone. It is like me talking to myself and brought some serious enlightenment on my drive home.
For someone like me who has been so lazy in making my life better. Feeling sorry for myself and growing roots on the pity pot. It just really vibes with me today, Man Life is just getting better and better.
Effort and actions!! Wishing is nice, but it is not a given.

Impurrfect

(((Trish)))

I am SO glad the dr. is ready to go ahead with the procedure because he can SEE the progress in you. I do think that you are doing as the song says...fighting for youself.

You go girl...we've got your back!! You ARE doing so much better and I'm really proud of you!!

Love, hugs, and prayers!

Amy

Astro

I love that song, Shinedown kicks @ss!

Yeah, I get it,
You're an outcast.
Always under attack.
Always coming in last,
Bringing up the past.
No one owes you anything.
I think you need a shotgun blast,
A kick in the ass,
So paranoid. . .
Watch your back!!

Oh my, here we go...

Another loose cannon gone bi-polar
Slipped down, couldn't get much lower.
Quicksand's got no sense of humor.
I'm still laughing like hell.
You think that by crying to me
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.

[Chorus:]
I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality,
If there's an afterlife,
Then it'll set you free.
But I'm not gonna part the seas
You're a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You think that crying to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.

[Chorus]

I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up...
When you gonna wake up and fight...

[Chorus]

When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself? [x3]

Rowan

Awesome song great lyrics I'd love to hear it pounding out of my car stereo.

You sound great, Trish.

Believe808

Trish you sound great. I'm so happy your visit with doctor was so positive. And you are so right, if we take action it will fall into place, but we have to take the action. Bravo to you girl!!!