I have to stop drinking
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Join Date: Mar 2008
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Welcome to SR. You may find it helpful to see your doctor for medical help in quitting. Alcohol withdrawal can be dangerous, best to be safe. Just don't drink for today. Just one day at a time, don't drink. It can be done. We can recover.
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Originally Posted by Bailey61 
Okay, it's taken over an hour to get registered and I almost gave up -- again. I spent the entire weekend drinking, smoking and gambling (online and casino) and I feel like crap. I drink red wine and the main goal is to get drunk. I don't want to stop after 1 drink - why would I? I'm happiest when I'm drunk and have so much fun. I'm not happy when I don't drink. Then all I get to do is work, and have to be a good mother, grandmother, wife etc - be a good person which is not fun. But I know this is killing me, and I know my kids and husband are getting worried about me. The last month has been the worst, almost everynite I'm up until 3 - 4 (sometimes until daylite) drinking and smoking and playing on the computer. Luckiily, I can 'work' from home on some days, so that helps. Everytime I try to quit I cant and I feel hopeless (when i'm sober). Thanks for letting me rant!
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Join Date: May 2008
Location: NY
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Just wanted to send another welcome to SR your way. Glad to see you stopped for 2 days and since that didn't work you are going to explore f2f support. That's awesome! I know what you mean about happiness and drinking, but once you've been away from the drinking for awhile you start to explore the deeper question of why you felt you "needed" alcohol for happiness or at least I did.
I am SOOOO much happier without it in my life. I read more. I participate with the family more. I am so much more a part of the living when I don't drink that going back there would be mighty foolish. Having said that, I have to remain diligent because after all I am an alcoholic and I do get foolish notions that say it was a party at one time. It may have been but the party ended years before my drinking finally ended. I also believe in the fact that we are here and connect with many souls while being placed here. I didn't like what alcohol was connecting me with or the way it was effecting those relationships.
Enough of me. Can't wait to read more about you and your progress and growth. If I could do it anyone can. Sarah
I am SOOOO much happier without it in my life. I read more. I participate with the family more. I am so much more a part of the living when I don't drink that going back there would be mighty foolish. Having said that, I have to remain diligent because after all I am an alcoholic and I do get foolish notions that say it was a party at one time. It may have been but the party ended years before my drinking finally ended. I also believe in the fact that we are here and connect with many souls while being placed here. I didn't like what alcohol was connecting me with or the way it was effecting those relationships.
Enough of me. Can't wait to read more about you and your progress and growth. If I could do it anyone can. Sarah
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