ej nice post!
i can't really list things that have worked for me because i'm starting all anew.... but some triggers for me were/are:
*being tired after work-i just couldn't take that tired feeling, i can actually take a nap after work and then go to bed and sleep til the morning. i guess that must be my depression, which of course was made worse by drinking.
*buying foods that i like to snack on when i drink-if i knew i had block cheese or croutons or snack chips/crackers, i think about that and think about drinking beer and relaxing eating those foods.
*letting things that people say or how they act towards me hurt me and make me feel lesser than them or stupid, an outcast.
*isolating myself all the time other than work, not being around people that make me feel good.
*feeling hopeless about my situation and not doing anything about it, just waiting for the day to get over so i could go to sleep.
that's all i can think of right now. some things i have thought about or done to help me with these things:
*like you trying to not overwhelm myself with being "perfect" --this is the hardest thing for me. my boss told me that i need to remind myself that "i am human"
*having things to eat in the house that are good for me, trying to nourish myself
*participating online, here mostly-interacting with ppl and letting down my guard and telling how things really are for me. also doing that with my friend and some with my mom too. i told them both that i am not going to drink again.
*writing in a journal whenever i feel i can. and writing whatever i can.
*i went out in the backyard today to be outside and to be in the sunlight (i usually stay in the house when i'm not at work) i've heard that sunlight helps with depression. i didn't really feel like it but i took a book and read for a bit.
*doing things i used to really enjoy like reading... and i've started crocheting this blanket with leftover yarn...it's going to be an ugly thing but it sometimes helps keep my mind off of holding a beer in my hand.
*diverting my thoughts or eyes whenever i think of drinking or i see an ad or commercial sensationalizing drinking and how glamorous it is--not, esp if you would have seen me early sunday morning. too bad they don't show those things on tv.
*drinking something all day long no matter if is pop, water or juice to stay hydrated.
sorry to be so long...but hope something in there helps. i want to start exercising but i haven't got the motivation right now. i think it will be there sometime if i keep doing the best i can. i've heard exercise is good for depression too.