rochadad

Hi everyone! I got my first 24 hours yesterday following an awful slip that left family and friends angry and worried about me. I feel so humiliated since I have been in and out for the past year. Hard to imagine I'll get any trust back this time. Its such a vicious cycle for me and I pray that I get it right this time. Going to a meeting tonight, but I'm embarrassed...Though I feel good that I'm doing what I should be doing. Thanks for reading my post and wish me luck!

rochadad

Well its day 6 and so far so good. I just keep thinking of the hell I went through on my last slip and that seems to keep me going forward. I have a huge mess to clean up as my finances are in dissaray (over 2000 in debt to payday loans due my binges) but I know I don't have to drink over it. Any advice on having a girlfriend who loves to party?

Astro

Hi Rocha, glad you're here and well done on 6 days of sobriety. You might want to try posting in our Newcomers forum, that's where the majority of the action takes place on SR and I'm sure you'd get more responses there.

As for the partying girlfriend, you'll have to decide what will work for you in your recovery. Speaking for myself, it makes it much easier to have friends and relationships with people who have similar goals and lifestyles.

Anna

Hi,

I'm glad you're dealing with the money issues and staying sober. Good for you!

And, I could not live with someone who loved to party.

NewDayNow

6 days sober-that's great

Charmie

hi rocha.nice too meet you! i am glad you have decided to take action and get yourslef to AA.it saved my life and gave me a whole new wondeful one! my partner and i have been together 6 yrs.we loved to party together,i thought all my prayers had been answered when i found out he drank and partied like me.i got sober at the begining of the year,,he followed shortly after,for himself but we would not have lasted if he had stayed the way he was.im not saying your girlfriend needs to stop doing what shes doing thats up to her,however it is up to you what you want in your life.personally i mix with sober folk.keep us updated!

MycoolFitz

Hey, I had one drink my last relapse, of course it lasted 5 years. Who knows when we'll finally make it? Guess it won't be until our deathbed. But every day we don't pick up a new, better world begins again. Don't worry about regaining the trust of family and friends right now, concentrate on regaining your on trust. Moment by moment by moment, don't pick up and all is ultimately well.

Wolfchild

Hello and welcome to the SR community.

i would rather pray for you than wish you anything.

rochadad

Thanks for the responses. I got to say, its so true that my best day drunk is worse than my worst day sober. Its funny how God speaks in subtle ways. Coincidentally, as I was worrying about how I'm going to keep my horrible payday loans in good standing, the AA meeting topic today was about gratitude, and I could actually be grateful that I made it back to the tables before wishing a $2000 dollar debt was my only problem.

My girlfriend is actually very supportive of me but I think I'll use the one day at a time process for that situation as well. Someone said in a meeting that whatever the circumstance, "YOU DON'T HAVE TO TAKE A DRINK". Thanks for the responses.

Dennis