vegibean

Least, sorry you're feeling so down on yourself. Let's pick you back up and get you going again. Be good to yourself, get some rest and keep the faith that you CAN and WILL do this!!! :ghug3

Fubarcdn

Hi Least.
We are here for you through the good times and the bad times.
We all know how much you want this and we all feel for you right now.
I know it is hard with your family situation but try to hang in and you will succeed.
Tou are a strong person and sometimes we all need a little help from our friends and you have many here. :ghug3

misstep

Don't you dare leave us Least! You always are so supportive to everyone else, let us be here for you. I'm not exactly sure what is happening in your life, but it hurts to see you be so hard on yourself. I'll be thinking about you .

turkstragal

Everyone makes mistakes thats what makes us human..It does not make you or anyone else "dumb"..Just take things one day or one hour at a time till your appt and remember we all have been in the same place at one time or another..We will all be here for you if you need us..I will pray for you...

Dee74

I hope you've stopped least. It solves nothing.
There's a lot of good advice here - I hope you take it.

D

gerryP

Hope you have stopped also Least.

hope3

You are always welcome..

God, please give Least the willingness and strength over the

nest few days not to drink. thank-you lord..

Hope3

citygirlalways

I think God loves each and every one of us. I do believe he is happy when he hears from any of us. Like being a parent, there is nothing my kids could do that would make me not love them. I think God is like that with us. In fact, I think he is happier when we turn to him for help. Big hugs!!!

luckedog

Least, Every thing that needs to be said has already been said. I am praying for you now. Please dont give up!!!!!!!!!!!!

monkey1

least, like warren said, you are an inspiration to so many, i know you are to me. keep picking yourself up and i hope your psychiatrist is able to offer some help. you deserve to feel good and happy. i'm rootin' for ya.

least

just woke up from a long nap and will try to get thru tonight and tomorrow without drinking. thank you all for you support. i don't feel i deserve it but thank you for it nonetheless.:ghug3

lifeline24

dont be so down on yourself. it's ok. the good news is there's always tomorrow. keep your head up. you have lots of support here. i will be thinking of you.:praying

tyler

Shoot, if they revoked your membership here for screwing up, I would have been gone a few days after I joined!!! I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in that statement.

Try not to think such negative thoughts about yourself. I know it's hard, it is a constant struggle for me as well. I always say that nobody can do as good and through a job of beating me as I can. Let me correct that (for my good friend Thomas!!) In the past, I always said that nobody can do as good a job of beating me as I can. That's a little trick he taught me. When you catch yourself thinking about all of the negative things you have done, repeat the thought, but in front of it put "in the past". The idea is that just because you've done it before does not mean you are doomed to do it again, unless you convince yourself otherwise. Give it a try, it sounds a little corny, but it has helped me.

Try to stay focused on the here and now. Don't worry about last night or last month. Don't even worry about staying sober for "the next two days". Just concern yourself with where you are right now. And now for some inspiration from Eddie, Sammy & the boys!! Take care.

Right Now

(Words by Van Halen)

Don't wanna wait 'til tomorrow
Why put it off another day?
One by one, little problems
Build up, and stand in our way. Oh

One step ahead, one step behind it
Now ya gotta run to get even
Make future plans I'll dream about yesterday, hey!
Come on turn, turn this thing around

(Right now) Hey! It's your tomorrow
(Right now) Come on, it's everything
(Right now) Catch your magic moment
Do it right here and now
It means everything

Miss a beat, you lose a rhythm
An nothin' falls into place. No!
Only missed by a fraction
Slipped a little off your pace. Oh!

The more things you get, the more you want
Just trade in one for another
Workin' so hard to make it easy
Whoa, got to turn. Come on, turn this thing around

least

my dad forgave me, why can't i forgive myself?

warrens

Susan

Inability to forgive ourselves is part and parcel of our addiction cycle. Expect it. Accept it. What we try to medicate only increases it.

That's why you (and I) are here. We need to hear supportive words from those who have actually walked in our shoes. It's why the folks who say "Just stop it" are clueless. It's not their fault, even if it does p*ss us off. How many things do I not comprehend? I am constantly trying to gain weight (at 61). I don't struggle with my sexuality (much). What I don't understand can fill another Wikipedia.

What I "think" I know is this: That the easier we are on ourselves, the greater our chance for success. Ease up. It hasn't killed you yet, so why not let it make you stronger?

friend warren

Dee74

Forgiving myself was a big battle for me too, S.

It stopped me from getting sober and it stopped me from getting in touch with God - which is important for me, and I know has been on your mind too.

Looking at it from this side, I think I had to 'get over myself' really - everyone else kept telling me I was a good guy, but I adamantly stubbornly even wilfully refused to believe it.

I chose to have faith in my friends and believe them.

I found I needed to challenge the negative voice everytime it surfaced, and encourage myself when I did good, which to my surprise was often.

and slowly, I let go of the extra weight I'd carried for 40 years.

I hope you find a way to do the same.

You are a good person. Give yourself some credit.
D

Pelican

We would never let your membership here be revoked, you're loved too much!

Dear S,

You are special! You are loved! Please keep posting.

You have not done anything that can't be forgiven. You have always done the best you knew how to do. That's all any of us can do at any given moment.

Your dogs love you and respect you just as you are! So do we!

Wantthatfeeling

Thanks for sharing. You wrote to me the other day I am REALLY appreciated it. I'd love to help in any way I can. Feel free to send me a message.

Take warrens beautiful advice, "Treat yourself better than you think you deserve."

warrens--thank you--I needed to hear that today too.

Waterman

Everyone can probably relate to your situation, Least. You have simply been in the "eye of a tornado", and you may not be "oriented" yet, but hang in there. You will stop spinning soon........Prayin' for you..

least

thank you all. i am trying to forgive myself but it's so hard. my daughter will hate me over this. she will never trust me again and i can't blame her. i wouldn't want to have me for a mother either. i am begging God to get me thru this. i know i can't do it alone.