Sending hugs to Rowan
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Join Date: May 2009
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Rowan, I am very impressed by your your ability to recognize that there is a problem and to take the appropriate steps to get help. You handled yourself perfectly. You are a role model!
I really hope you feel better soon! :ghug3
I really hope you feel better soon! :ghug3
for the rough spot, Ro. 
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: Alberta, Canada
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Dear Rowan, ((((((((((Big largest HUGS to you))))))))))
I'm sorry I've been away a couple days from SR...and to see this thread is sad. I sure HOPE and PRAY that soon everything will be well for you again Rowan. You are such a special person and such a wonderful member of SR!! XO
Please take care and be well soon.
Love Pancake XO :praying
I'm sorry I've been away a couple days from SR...and to see this thread is sad. I sure HOPE and PRAY that soon everything will be well for you again Rowan. You are such a special person and such a wonderful member of SR!! XO
Please take care and be well soon.
Love Pancake XO :praying
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Join Date: Dec 2003
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Thank you for your messages, and for this thread (((Trish))).
After an abrupt change in medication, I experienced several weeks' worth of anxiety and paranoia - by Wednesday night, I knew I was in trouble. After posting here on our back-up forum, I called my sponsor who confirmed what I already knew: I needed to go to the hospital. Suicide seemed a very real possibility in my distorted mind. I was admitted that night and was released earlier tonight. My sponsor was with me when I was discharged, and we went to a meeting together. I'm still not 100% but I am much better.
I experienced a lot of fear, sadness, anger, and shame while on the psych ward. 20 years ago, I was there voluntarily after a drunken suicide attempt, while this time I was there to save my life, and I was sober before, during and after.
Yesterday marked 3 years of clean and sober time. In the hospital, they offered me Ativan to calm me down, but I was lucid enough to tell them I was in recovery and could not take benzos. Wow am I ever grateful for that.
I choose not to look at this experience with regret. It has brought my sister and I closer together, and by being open and honest with my daughter about my depression, I'm no longer buying into the 'family secrets' that I was raised with.
My sponsor told me that one day I would be able to look back at this experience with gratitude - and I'm surprised to say that I already am able to. I met a lady there this afternoon who is being treated for cancer - her third time. She and I were able to talk about depression, our families, and life. And, we shared some laughs.
I was also able to connect with my Higher Power while in hospital, and He was a real comfort to me. When everything was stripped away, there was me and there was George (HP) and I knew I would be okay.
I'm glad to be back home - especially here at SR. I missed you all so very much.
After an abrupt change in medication, I experienced several weeks' worth of anxiety and paranoia - by Wednesday night, I knew I was in trouble. After posting here on our back-up forum, I called my sponsor who confirmed what I already knew: I needed to go to the hospital. Suicide seemed a very real possibility in my distorted mind. I was admitted that night and was released earlier tonight. My sponsor was with me when I was discharged, and we went to a meeting together. I'm still not 100% but I am much better.
I experienced a lot of fear, sadness, anger, and shame while on the psych ward. 20 years ago, I was there voluntarily after a drunken suicide attempt, while this time I was there to save my life, and I was sober before, during and after.
Yesterday marked 3 years of clean and sober time. In the hospital, they offered me Ativan to calm me down, but I was lucid enough to tell them I was in recovery and could not take benzos. Wow am I ever grateful for that.
I choose not to look at this experience with regret. It has brought my sister and I closer together, and by being open and honest with my daughter about my depression, I'm no longer buying into the 'family secrets' that I was raised with.
My sponsor told me that one day I would be able to look back at this experience with gratitude - and I'm surprised to say that I already am able to. I met a lady there this afternoon who is being treated for cancer - her third time. She and I were able to talk about depression, our families, and life. And, we shared some laughs.
I was also able to connect with my Higher Power while in hospital, and He was a real comfort to me. When everything was stripped away, there was me and there was George (HP) and I knew I would be okay.
I'm glad to be back home - especially here at SR. I missed you all so very much.
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