I'm finally here
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I'm finally here
Hi there,
I finally can say that I have a problem. I've been on this ride way to long...and I want off. I'm 37 and pretending that my life is fine, its not. My preference is wine...red. But I find that I can't just stop at a glass, once the bottle is gone, I want more. And I don't sip, I guzzle. I've been trying to quit for a year now with no success, I keep making excuses that its ok, but its not.
I know my life could be so much more, but I choose to drink instead of doing the things I really want to do. I pray finding this place will help me stop. I want to stop....I want to stop...I want to be happy. .
I don't drink everyday...but I drink to much to know that its a problem
1 day sober
Liz
I finally can say that I have a problem. I've been on this ride way to long...and I want off. I'm 37 and pretending that my life is fine, its not. My preference is wine...red. But I find that I can't just stop at a glass, once the bottle is gone, I want more. And I don't sip, I guzzle. I've been trying to quit for a year now with no success, I keep making excuses that its ok, but its not.
I know my life could be so much more, but I choose to drink instead of doing the things I really want to do. I pray finding this place will help me stop. I want to stop....I want to stop...I want to be happy. .
I don't drink everyday...but I drink to much to know that its a problem
1 day sober
Liz
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Hi Liz,
When I read your post I felt like I could be reading my own story (except that I'm 44 years old and prefer: red AND white wine -- I use to alternate... how sad is that!) I feel like this website is helping me a lot. Stay on here and read all you can at first. I guarantee it will help.
Take care,
Laura
When I read your post I felt like I could be reading my own story (except that I'm 44 years old and prefer: red AND white wine -- I use to alternate... how sad is that!) I feel like this website is helping me a lot. Stay on here and read all you can at first. I guarantee it will help.
Take care,
Laura
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Evansville, IN
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Hi Liz, you are on the right track. Its good to hear such honesty from someone one day sober. I never knew happiness and peace until I decided to get sober and stay active in recovery. Keep it up!
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Welcome Liz!
Yup, your story rang true for me as well. Loved my red wine.
Today I have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and I am free.
Sobriety has been such a gift to me.
Are you planning to work any sort of recovery program? AA is a huge part of my recovery. Worth checking out if you are not adverse to it for some reason.
Congrats on Day 1!
Yup, your story rang true for me as well. Loved my red wine.
Today I have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and I am free.
Sobriety has been such a gift to me.
Are you planning to work any sort of recovery program? AA is a huge part of my recovery. Worth checking out if you are not adverse to it for some reason.
Congrats on Day 1!
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Join Date: Jul 2009
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Thank you for all your warm welcomes.
(I looked up in the yellow pages of an addiction referral helpline...which I plan to call tomorrow for some guidance. )
I just got off the phone with my sister, who I honestly for the first time said that I need help and I can't do this alone. She asked me if I would go to AA. I hesitated before answering her. I know I need to go, but why am I so scared?
Liz
(I looked up in the yellow pages of an addiction referral helpline...which I plan to call tomorrow for some guidance. )
I just got off the phone with my sister, who I honestly for the first time said that I need help and I can't do this alone. She asked me if I would go to AA. I hesitated before answering her. I know I need to go, but why am I so scared?
Liz
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Evansville, IN
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I was scared when I first started going. Then again, I was scared of everything before I got sober. If you live in a larger city they will send an AA member to visit you and take you to a meeting so it isn't so scary going yourself the first time. Hang in there and the right things will happen if you do your part.
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Try not drinking the first glass and seek help (AA, family, friends, professionals,etc) in staying not drinking the first glass.
Sir, I have no objection to a man's drinking wine, if he can do it in moderation. I found myself apt to go to excess in it, and therefore, after having been for some time without it, on account of illness, I thought it better not to return to it. Every man is to judge for himself, according to the effects which he experiences.
-Samuel Johnson, J. Boswell "The Life of Samuel Johnson", 1784
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Sir, I have no objection to a man's drinking wine, if he can do it in moderation. I found myself apt to go to excess in it, and therefore, after having been for some time without it, on account of illness, I thought it better not to return to it. Every man is to judge for himself, according to the effects which he experiences.
-Samuel Johnson, J. Boswell "The Life of Samuel Johnson", 1784
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(I looked up in the yellow pages of an addiction referral helpline...which I plan to call tomorrow for some guidance. )
Generally the people in those rooms have good hearts and are very willing to help.
Good for you for making such an important decision for yourself.
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Hey, happy! Congratulations on taking the first step. It's a long, hard, wonderful journey. I loved what you said... what was it (scrolls back up...)
That's been one of the most wonderful surprises for me -- how much more cool stuff there is to do now that I'm not at the bar drinking.
I know my life could be so much more, but I choose to drink instead of doing the things I really want to do.
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Welcome liz! Your story is similar to mine but I liked white wine. Inpatient rehab was best for me. Read all through this site, there's lots of information, support and very nice people. Please let us know how your phone call tomorrow goes. And congrats on telling your sister.
Love,
Lenina
Love,
Lenina
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Welcome.
SR is the place to be. It sure is helping me, been sober now for a little over 5 years. I used AA at first, then just sure willpower, after taking a long, hard look at my life and after hitting my bottom. I reflex now on that and it could of even been a worst bottom if I allowed it. I got to where you are now and just had had enough. I told myself, "NO MORE!"
I never did care much for wine or liquior, I loved my beer and sure do miss it in this Arizona heat. I just can not go back there, I can not and will not do it.
Do whatever you have to do to stay sober, go to a meeting? I have met some really great people there and we all are there for the same reason, to become and stay sober. It was so hard for me to walk threw that door, but I was welcomed with open arms and have made many, many new friends.
Keep us posted on how you are doing.
SR is the place to be. It sure is helping me, been sober now for a little over 5 years. I used AA at first, then just sure willpower, after taking a long, hard look at my life and after hitting my bottom. I reflex now on that and it could of even been a worst bottom if I allowed it. I got to where you are now and just had had enough. I told myself, "NO MORE!"
I never did care much for wine or liquior, I loved my beer and sure do miss it in this Arizona heat. I just can not go back there, I can not and will not do it.
Do whatever you have to do to stay sober, go to a meeting? I have met some really great people there and we all are there for the same reason, to become and stay sober. It was so hard for me to walk threw that door, but I was welcomed with open arms and have made many, many new friends.
Keep us posted on how you are doing.
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Originally Posted by happy2balive 
Hi there,
I finally can say that I have a problem. I've been on this ride way to long...and I want off. I'm 37 and pretending that my life is fine, its not. My preference is wine...red. But I find that I can't just stop at a glass, once the bottle is gone, I want more. And I don't sip, I guzzle. I've been trying to quit for a year now with no success, I keep making excuses that its ok, but its not.
I know my life could be so much more, but I choose to drink instead of doing the things I really want to do. I pray finding this place will help me stop. I want to stop....I want to stop...I want to be happy. .
I don't drink everyday...but I drink to much to know that its a problem
1 day sober
Liz
I finally can say that I have a problem. I've been on this ride way to long...and I want off. I'm 37 and pretending that my life is fine, its not. My preference is wine...red. But I find that I can't just stop at a glass, once the bottle is gone, I want more. And I don't sip, I guzzle. I've been trying to quit for a year now with no success, I keep making excuses that its ok, but its not.
I know my life could be so much more, but I choose to drink instead of doing the things I really want to do. I pray finding this place will help me stop. I want to stop....I want to stop...I want to be happy. .
I don't drink everyday...but I drink to much to know that its a problem
1 day sober
Liz
i did not to drink every day but if i had one drink i had to drink till i was slaughtered in the end my liver gave out ,its great the first week sober thwn tough for two weeks then you feel great or at least i do ,stick with it what have you got to lose .. liver damage ,head aches every morning ,feeling like your at deaths door every day ,some low life drinking buddys that really dont care about you unless your in the pub with them drinking yourself to death buying them drinks ... not exactly the hardest choice you will ever have to make is it
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Hi Liz. I just read a lot of me in your story too. I was a red wine drinker too. Decided it did not agree with me and changed to white wine but instead of buying a bottle of white I often bought the large carton with the tap...........it was going to last me the week you know!! I found myself wringing out the silver bladder inside the carton at the end of the night. So on it went.....with me then saying red and white did not agree with me, I will just have a few brandies!! Never considered the problem was me... Ended up with me drinking red or white wine then a brandy and port next day for a cure!! I used to think that was normal. In the end I would have drank anything if I could not get my favorite.....red wine.
Congrats on day one. I needed the support of AA to stay sober. I tried all other methods only drinking at home etc, including the switching drinks I mentioned.
Congrats on day one. I needed the support of AA to stay sober. I tried all other methods only drinking at home etc, including the switching drinks I mentioned.
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I know I need to go, but why am I so scared?
Trust me when you walk through that door, every single person still remembers thier first meeting and just how scared they were, I do!!!!
Go to a meeting, get there 15 minutes early and just walk up to any lady and introduce your self. If you are really nervous call your local AA hotliine, they can arrange for you to meet and talk to a lady or 2 who will be more then happy to take you to your first meeting.
What do you have to lose? A few hours of drinking time?
What do you have to gain? A solution to your drinking problem, new sober freinds, a new way of living life on lifes terms one day at a time sober and happy!
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