Where I am at, 6 months later
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Fredericksburg, Va.
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Lisa that was an awesome post and congrats on the 6 months sober. Post like yours are so helpful to some one new to sobriety, it gives them hope that if they can just hold on and do the work they need to do to change things do really get better.
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Join Date: May 2009
Location: SoCal
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Congrats! Thank you for posting this!
I've already mentioned to you how happy it made me to see that you've changed your name here. I think the fact that you decided to do that says a lot about how your self-image has changed over the past 6 months. Very inspirational to me!
Awesome job!
I've already mentioned to you how happy it made me to see that you've changed your name here. I think the fact that you decided to do that says a lot about how your self-image has changed over the past 6 months. Very inspirational to me!
Awesome job!
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Paradise
Posts: 4,161
Thanks everybody 
What are you struggling with ocean? For me, the very first thing I woke up to was an incredible self loathing. About 2 months into sobriety I had to forgive the whole "last drunk" and everyone involved to move past.
During my first month, I saw a therapist twice who mentioned I might have some codependent issues. I found a thread here on the boards dealing with that, and I spent the next couple of days going back and reading old posts, and crying my eyes out. So much of my life I believed in things that just weren't healthy, for me or the people around me. I can't tell you what a relief it was.
So basically, I may not be of help here. You see, I almost immediately found some of the issues that were making me such a wreck that alcohol was allowed such importance. Almost immediately, alcohol was banished and I started working in earnest towards unraveling the mystery of making myself peaceful, content, spiritually aware, in control. and able to care for myself.
I neither need alcohol today to help me feel differently, nor do I trust alcohol not to destroy what progress I have made.
The long time sober people that we hear from every day on these boards helped me immensely. I did have to put my rebellious "I can do it myself" attitude in time out for a bit, and really TRY what people were suggesting. Everyday I work on something for me, read a little in a recovery book or a self help book, look at something from a new angle, or ask questions of people who might guide me along.
What are you struggling with ocean? For me, the very first thing I woke up to was an incredible self loathing. About 2 months into sobriety I had to forgive the whole "last drunk" and everyone involved to move past.
During my first month, I saw a therapist twice who mentioned I might have some codependent issues. I found a thread here on the boards dealing with that, and I spent the next couple of days going back and reading old posts, and crying my eyes out. So much of my life I believed in things that just weren't healthy, for me or the people around me. I can't tell you what a relief it was.
So basically, I may not be of help here. You see, I almost immediately found some of the issues that were making me such a wreck that alcohol was allowed such importance. Almost immediately, alcohol was banished and I started working in earnest towards unraveling the mystery of making myself peaceful, content, spiritually aware, in control. and able to care for myself.
I neither need alcohol today to help me feel differently, nor do I trust alcohol not to destroy what progress I have made.
The long time sober people that we hear from every day on these boards helped me immensely. I did have to put my rebellious "I can do it myself" attitude in time out for a bit, and really TRY what people were suggesting. Everyday I work on something for me, read a little in a recovery book or a self help book, look at something from a new angle, or ask questions of people who might guide me along.
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