I am afraid of everything
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Hey Suze, Slow the mind down. Take a deep breath. Say the Serenity Prayer, especially the part about accepting the things we cannot change. Then jump on the bike and go for a ride. We're all with you.
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Trying to stay positive... I really am. This morning I found out that my Grandma is back in the hospital with a heart blockage. My Mom is at the doctor as we speak finding out more about the hole in her heart. When it rains it pours!!!!
It would be so easy... There is no one at home today, I could drink and get away with it. Whats really pi$$ing me off is that I'm thinking this way. Yesterday way my 16 month sober mark and for 99% of the time I have not been tempted to drink. Now it seems like I have thought about it several times lately. The good thing is I don't act on it.
It would be so easy... There is no one at home today, I could drink and get away with it. Whats really pi$$ing me off is that I'm thinking this way. Yesterday way my 16 month sober mark and for 99% of the time I have not been tempted to drink. Now it seems like I have thought about it several times lately. The good thing is I don't act on it.
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I'm so sorry to hear that bad news 
I find I can never "get away with it" when I drink, as I am more hard on myself than anyone else and it only makes things worse anyway.
Grats on your 16 months! Your success is inspirational to me. Just know that these hard times you are going through will pass and we will all be thinking of you in the mean time.
I find I can never "get away with it" when I drink, as I am more hard on myself than anyone else and it only makes things worse anyway.Grats on your 16 months! Your success is inspirational to me. Just know that these hard times you are going through will pass and we will all be thinking of you in the mean time.
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Suz,
I went through a period of time if it wasn't one thing, it was something else equally unpleasant or worrisome. Are you still able to see your therapist? Mine helped me put things in their proper perceptives.
Here's some you might try. A priest friend of mine told me to write down a list of all the stuff bothering me, stuff I was worried about, every night and put it in a box with a lid. A shoe box will do. Do this for a month and then read all the stuff you wrote. I was very surprised the stuff that was worrying me at the time I wrote it down, I'd almost completely forgotten! Much resolved on its own with much less drama than I'd expected.
(((((Hugs to you))))) And know I keep you in my thoughts.
Love,
Lenina
I went through a period of time if it wasn't one thing, it was something else equally unpleasant or worrisome. Are you still able to see your therapist? Mine helped me put things in their proper perceptives.
Here's some you might try. A priest friend of mine told me to write down a list of all the stuff bothering me, stuff I was worried about, every night and put it in a box with a lid. A shoe box will do. Do this for a month and then read all the stuff you wrote. I was very surprised the stuff that was worrying me at the time I wrote it down, I'd almost completely forgotten! Much resolved on its own with much less drama than I'd expected.
(((((Hugs to you))))) And know I keep you in my thoughts.
Love,
Lenina
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I've spent the entire day in bed again, waiting to hear something about my Grandma. She was going to have the stint put in between 2 and 4:00.
My Mom saw the cardioligist thismorning and tomorrow she will see the pulmonary specialist. All these tests are frustrating to her. She wants the hole in her heart fixed now.
I'm going to attempt to get up and do something... Waiting by the phone and laying in bed are making me crazy. On the other hand thinking of doing anything makes me just as anxious.
I will not drink!!! But I have had 2 ativan!
My Mom saw the cardioligist thismorning and tomorrow she will see the pulmonary specialist. All these tests are frustrating to her. She wants the hole in her heart fixed now.
I'm going to attempt to get up and do something... Waiting by the phone and laying in bed are making me crazy. On the other hand thinking of doing anything makes me just as anxious.
I will not drink!!! But I have had 2 ativan!
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