c49

Doesn't it stink. My last slip was a year ago. I'm on the verge of just not trying. Yesterday my wife debated the idea of NOT THROWING the booze out. We boxed it up and its going to her parents house. I drank enough on Friday to be buzzed yesterday. Call that a 2 day drunk. I dont know if I drank yesterday.

1 year and I fell. Anyone on the fence should know that this is not the sort of feeling you want to wake up to!!!

Dee74

A years not to be sneezed at c49999.
Don't let this be anymore than a two day drunk

Think about what happened, make adjustments, and start again
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Believe808

Reminds me that this disease is cunning, baffling & powerful, and is doing pushups just waiting for the right time to strike.

Glad you made it back.

maz09

Don't feel bad, you went a long time without it, you're only human, we all slip up sometimes in our lifes one way or another.
Yesterday is history, focus on the future one day at a time.

coffeenut

A year! Well.....take this as a huge learning experience. Thank you for sharing what can happen to EVERY one of us.

Get yourself together and get to day 2, now.

Welcome to SR. We're glad you're here.

c49

Thanks all! Today is rough. Last time I had to do this was in 2008 and it feels like yesterday. I dont even remember drinking yesterday but I obviously did....

firestorm090

Hi c49,

You made it a year, so you no know you can make another, by the same method of living one day at a time. Don't be too hard on yourself, just pick up the tools again and start fresh. Maybe something was bothering you, something just wasn't right, maybe life had becoeme stagnant or more difficult, if you can identify the trigger, it may help avoid a repeat performance.

Wolfchild

i hope that you will consider this as another failed experment at using alcohol
rather than continuing to mix those chemicals which result in self-destruction.

i hope that this was enough evidence for you to realize what you felt you needed to know.

Thank you for coming back with a desire to stop living a way of life that only ends in death.

Begin to begin again; go to a meeting today, call your sponsor, and don't take another drink!

NewBeginning010

The quote is my signature just about says it all \/

Anna

I'm sorry you're going through this.

But, know that you did it before and you can do it now.

Dime

Wow, I am so glad you posted as it means you intend on staying sober. You did not lose the year of sobriety. Your body, bank account, loved ones and employer do not forget the year of being sober. Give yourself credit, a year is fantastic.

I would probably evaluate my recovery program and try not to repeat what I was doing just prior to relapse.

pearlwolf911

i was sober 10 weeks.....i fell...and i still havent gotten back up

c49

I did a whole lot of fessing up today. Some of it was easy and some was hard. Discovered that over the past year I actually inspired a number of family members to put their drinks away. A few said so today for the first time. Well folks, its another lesson learned and its nice to be reminded of not being alone.

Day 1, done.

KERRYZZME

Thank you so much for sharing that with us. I really needed to be reminded how close my next drink could be. This disease is so powerful. I am so glad you are here, STAY!!