1KitGer

Hello, I am part of another site similuar to this one but for different reasons. I have been trying to get sober for the past 4 years. I have been to AA meetings, 90 and 90, and I can't seem to get a hold of my drinking. I dont drink for 10 to 14 days the whether I'm happy, sad, confused (any emotions) I drink, then the cycle gets all over again. Thank you for letting me rant, and thanks for ya'll being here. I'm hoping and praying that this will help, I think I'm at my last straw. 1KitGer:praying

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

I'm glad you found us.

I struggled for a long time, trying to stop and failing too. I realized after a long while, that I found some strange comfort in failing. It was something I was used to. You can make a conscious decision that when the 10 to 14 day point comes along, alcohol is not an option for consideration. I hope you keep reading and posting.

grateful2b

Hi Kit
Welcome to SR!
I am glad you found your way here..
you will find lots of wonderful support on our boards
keep coming back

SurviveIt

I hope it helps you too. It's helped me.

Good luck to you. Not for nothing, but I'm on your side, pulling for you all the way.

Dee74

welcome to SR 1 KitGer

This is a great place.
I think you'll find some useful stuff here

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Freedom1990

Did you get a sponsor? Did you start working the steps with your sponsor?

I can attend all the AA meetings I want, but I'm not going to stay sober unless I do the work in recovery.

I don't get sobriety through osmosis at meetings.

I hope you continue to post, and give it another shot! :ghug

CarolD

Welcome to our recovery community.....

I too returned to drinking many times after I decided to quit.
I was in and out of AA for 4 years....

Then I read a book.....here is a link to excerpts

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

I took that information....
re- newed my connection to God and AA
and finally I quit drinking.

Keep posting....we do understand..

Horselover

Welcome to SR and NEVER EVER give up!! You don't know if this will be it. You also need to be determined like Anna said and find anything that will get you through the cravings. You also know that cravings pass and then they will eventually lessen.

You haven't tried everything yet! You can do it.

nogard

Welcome to SR

yankees24

i know what you mean when you say you cant get past that two week point and ive been stuck in the same boat for about a year now...maybe just realizing that fact and really having the will to no longer put ourselves through this insanity will help us leave poison behind good.

tyler

I can very much identify with what you are saying. I have a very similar pattern. Day 4 sober today, so I'm just trying to keep it one day at a time. It may help just to not count the days. Just say sober today, and then do it again tomorrow. Pot is my DOC and I intentionally don't count the days for that because I always seem to screw up right before 30. I've been in a bit of denial about the drinking I think, I'm not a daily drinker, but a binger. Just not gonna let myself drink. I come here for support and may try going back to some meetings. It's not lack of resources that have kept me drinking/using, it is me.

Good luck, this is a great site and has provided great support to me for many years, through good and bad. BTW, love your avitar. Looks like my dog on the beach!! Take care.

Jomey

Thanks for joining us, Kit! Glad you are here - I think you will find the site very informative....just let us know what we can do to help. We are here for you! Don't give up!!! Jomey

tyler

You have not been kicked off, read my PM please.

tommyk

Keep coming back.

Resolve to call someone in sobriety everyday whether you want to or not.

The idea is that before you drink you'll make a call instead.

1KitGer

No I dont have a sponsor, I have gone through 3 in the last 4 years. I need to find one that is not such a GOD person. I grew up in a very religious house (father southern baptist preacher), and it really turned me off. I am spiritual and I meditate BUT.....
I know stop making excuses. But thanks for the advise and I will try better, 4days and counting and I havent drank today.

1KitGer

easier said then done, about calling people in the program. I literally go into a trance once I decide to drink that day. As soon as I have the thought, nothing else matters for the rest of the day. No gym, no phone calls, I actually start fights with my husband. But thanks for the good advice everyone. 1KitGer