TOPIC: I Tried But To No Avail. I Loss. I Couldn't Help Myself. How About You?
 

I made plans to go to a club
with intentions of only having
a few drinks. Ill dance, mingle,
drink moderately and return
home at a reasonable hour. :rotfxko

Now...... that's a joke.

There was NO way i could
follow those intentions no
matter how hard I tried or
how many times I tried.

Will Power:react because I
was powerless over everything.

People, places, things. :c029:

I did not know this until I went
thru hell and back.

A wreck that almost took my
life. A failed attempt to end
my misery. And finally family
intervention, rehab and recovery.

Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely
grateful.

Have you ever been in this situation
before realizing u were/are powerless?

I tried but to no avail. I lost. I couldn't help myself. How about you?

Well, those words really reminded me of people's words after a relapse.

I know you were talking about that period of time in your drinking when you were trying to control your drinking and couldn't. I had that distinctive period too. It was horrible. I tried drawing lines on bottles, hiding them from myself, saying how many glasses I could have, promised rewards, etc. Nothing worked. I drank until it was gone.

But I've been sober now for almost 16 months. And in AA and my post-rehab group, people relapse left and right. And they say, "I tried but to no avail. I lost. I couldn't help myself. " And I feel such compassion for them because I think they are stuck in the same horrible place of trying to control their drinking. Maybe they aren't really sober and in recovery and maybe they are still stuck there - desperately trying to control their drinking. What's the difference between that place and relapse?

my last drunk was 3 days when I thought I could drink 2 beers
I drank those 2 beers,and a lot more after those.If I had known what was to happen,and had the power to avoid it,I may have.As it was,I lived thru it and it turned out to the the very thing I needed to convince myself I was a hopeless,helpless alcoholic.