aasharon90

Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.


What IF today was ur last day on
earth. What woud you do? Who
would u see? What would u say?

I would spend each moment with
the one i love the most. I would
tell my AA family here in SR how
much YOU are APPRECIATED and
loved.

I would stay in close contact with
my Maker. The One who has
blessed me with so much. Who
has guided me, strengthened
me and protected me all my life.

I would take each minute as if
it were my last and treasure it
with all my heart forever being
filled with graditude.

The people that hurt me the
most.....family members who
were sick in their own way to
forgive them and place them
in my HP's hands for further
care. Forgive them for they
knew not what to did at that
time.


Now what would you do?

Believe808

I often thought about this. I know one thing for sure, I would not let anyone know it was my last day first of all. And besides being with my kids, I don't think I would do anything different. I really feel like I do live each day as if it was my last now that I am sober and working the steps in my life. So yeah, I guess my answer would be Nothing Different than I am doing today. Thanks for the Thread Assharon!!!!

FizzyWater

I'd increase my life insurance to the maximum they'll allow me to make sure my kids never want for anything.

jamdls

I also try to live like it was my last day in my daily routine. If I knew it was my last I'd want to spend it with my dad and my daughter. I also like the idea of getting lots of life insurance to leave for my daughter, I'd do that now but can't afford to.

barb dwyer

In the tradition I was raised, there's a slogan "hokka hey"

it loosely means 'today is a good day to die'.

Because I lost so many family members early in life, (father at ten, mother at nineteen... etc) I feel as if I've thought about this all my life.

And I learned something when I got sick...
that this really COULD be my last day.

SO....
I just go ahead and really DO live every day as if it's my last.
It becomes a habit.

I go ahead and tell people I love them.
I go ahead and use the 'good dishes'.
I don't hang on to my 'skinny' clothes any more...
if I'm dead tomorrow -
then I'm probably not going to ever see the other side of thin again.
Donate it and let some younger this lady enjoy these jeans.
God knows I did.

I'm genuinely happy to see people coming into the rooms day after day.

I go outside and look into the sky - several times a day.
I watch clouds.
I study the birds and ravens in the yard.
I notice every new leaf on my houseplants and congratulate the plant for it's effort.
WHen I can, I go ahead and purchase the 'good' brands of food, or the 'nicer' line of face and body lotion.
I make it a point to go visit my neighbors , several of whom are aging and lonely.
Just like me sometimes.
And we've become comfortable in our knowing that every visit might be my or their last.
It makes each word more signifigant, somehow.
We don't babble on just because no one is talking.
It's far richer than my previous more frantic life's visits.

I go ahead and smile at the lady breaking in line at my checkout.
I let the 'busy important people hurry on their way in traffic.
Maybe letting her think she 'got away' with something ...
byu letting her push at me...
will make her be nicer to her children when she gets home.
I ponder the size and awareness of the Great Rocky Mountains; the Pintler mountain range, and the Highlands.

And my life is all the better for it.

Good topic Sharon!!!

mle-sober

Is this the last day for everyone or just me?

If it were for everyone (like end of the world scenario) I'd tell my husband how much I love him and we'd snuggle up together with our kids.

If it were just my last day, I'd keep some dignity. I'd refrain from telling my husband how much I love him. After all, he is in the process of leaving me and has declared he's going to get full custody and since he has all the money and I'm an alcoholic, that he's going to win. So, I'd refrain from spilling my sadness all over him. I'd buy a bottle of really good chardonnay and use the nicest glass. And take a long hot bath. And I'd pray.

Strange that I'd drink on my last day? Oh well. Just telling the truth.

Mattcake

I really admire your honesty. I've been thinking about this topic, and realised that I would definitely not drink. The answers that I came up with, however, make me uncomfortable, as I can't help asking myself why I coudln't do those things NOW. Fear, as usual.

aasharon90

I wouldnt drink on my last day either.
Im too happy and full of graditude
and humility to want to be drunk.

It makes me dizzy just thinking about
it.

nocoincidence56

It's all been said so well. In my case, having reached the destination, reflection and gratitude for the journey of life. Gratitude for actually living, experiencing the joy and the pain, the quiet moments, the exuberance of others, the giving without expectation, and just maybe, making someones' life better. I could go on and on...... One thing though, I would hope to see those scales which weighted the good and the bad (at one time tilted gravely in the bad direction) of my actions and their effects on others being tilted more to the good. They may not be even, but I would long to see them moved so I could see I have done something positive in this journey of life...........

mle-sober

I wouldn't say I'm lacking gratitude or humility. It's just that drinking or not drinking is not a moral issue for me. It's not immoral to drink. It's just bad for me. It makes me do stupid things and it hurts my body. If I'm dying that day, I think a drink is utterly appropriate. It would be a celebration.

Wolfchild

Same thing i did yesterday;
Didn't use, went to a meeting, talked with my sponsor & my sponsees, helped another addict to recover, stayed in contact with my Higher Power, enjoyed this new way of life to the best of my ability, and remained sincerly grateful.

123bubblegum123

It's funny, I've actually gone to see fortune tellers and palm readers and stuff when I was younger, and I'm usually such an impatient person that I want to know everything right up front - which totally ruins the fun of everything. I really wouldn't even want to know when my official last day was, mostly because then it would be really sad. I'd rather it be just like any other day..also out of fear I'd end up using just to get through my last night. guess I'm a weakling hah