coffeenut

Welcome to SR. I could have written your post.

The only thing I can say is that YOU know you have a problem, doesn't really matter what others see you as, does it?

Stick around....this place makes sobriety Doable.

Antone

I've shared that feeling of hypocrisy. I work in social services often with people with alcohol and drug problems. The stress from work was leading me to heavy drinking several nights a week. I was aware of the contradiction but couldn't stop. Finally, I missed work with a hangover and that was it. I felt like such a hypocrite I had to stop. But I also realized the distance between social service provider and consumer can be pretty narrow. We're human and are prone to human ills. I respect your courage in fearlessly presenting your situation.

Questa

Yea that is what has been so difficult. I don't drink to feel fun or wild and crazy or party. I stopped going out and being social because I just feel numb all the time.

I drink to be able to sleep and make the anxiety go away for at least a little while.

Not so much fun.

Thanks for your comments. Everyone.

Thank you.

Tazman53

So how are you doing today Questa?

Questa

Not that great Taz but thank you for asking.

We had to interview a patient today with horrible paranoid schizophrenia and this poor guy had never done anything wrong in his life to deserve his situation.

Just made me feel pretty awful for my complaints about everything. At least I can recognize that.

Thanks for asking,

Q