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PrettyPoison, I don't know you, but I admire your honesty and perseverance more than I can say. We alcoholics have brains on overdrive, battering us relentlessly with doubts about others and about ourselves (at least this alcoholic does). I am so proud of you for posting. The fact that you did that and are thinking through the drink shows how far you've come towards silencing this beast within us. You may not feel strong right now, but you sound to me as if you have the upper hand. I have faith in you, even if you don't right now. Your strength resonates through your words.
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Originally Posted by Freedom1990 
Pretty, you really brought back memories for me. I've been there more than once, dialed every phone number I had to no avail. It was then that I understood what my sponsor said about sometimes the only thing between me and that drink is God.
I got down on my knees and prayed. I read out of my Big Book. You mentioned a nice bubble bath-I've done that too.
Please know you are not alone, and I am so glad you reached out to us here at SR!
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I got down on my knees and prayed. I read out of my Big Book. You mentioned a nice bubble bath-I've done that too.
Please know you are not alone, and I am so glad you reached out to us here at SR!
:ghug :ghug
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I am so very glad you came to SR for help. This is HOW it should work for people and you are showing all newbies and everyone how it can work when applied. You definitely can get through this night and you have made a great start. I wish I could offer some words of wisdom, but its all been taken. Just know I am sending some prayers up for you and you have all the positive energy I can emit right now. God bless you for working it and facing it head on.
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Originally Posted by serenityqueen
I'm glad to see you back posting, but not under these circumstances of course. I am proud of you for coming on here, spilling what you're going though and most of all, not drinking!
In all of my other attempts at Sobriety, if something like you're going through tonight happened, I never called anyone, I would sit and go over all kinds of crazy scenarios in my head and within a very short time, I was out the door. You are doing something that you should be incredibly proud of yourself for, you're teling on your disease and by doing that, it takes a little bit of it's strength away. . . even though it may not seem like it now.
I can't offer you anything that others haven't said. I did sent you a PM with my phone number if you want to call me (if you have free LD that is!) When I said anytime, day or night, I meant that. OK?
Stay here with us . . . you're among people who understand what you're going through and we do care about you!
Big Hugs,
Judy
In all of my other attempts at Sobriety, if something like you're going through tonight happened, I never called anyone, I would sit and go over all kinds of crazy scenarios in my head and within a very short time, I was out the door. You are doing something that you should be incredibly proud of yourself for, you're teling on your disease and by doing that, it takes a little bit of it's strength away. . . even though it may not seem like it now.
I can't offer you anything that others haven't said. I did sent you a PM with my phone number if you want to call me (if you have free LD that is!) When I said anytime, day or night, I meant that. OK?
Stay here with us . . . you're among people who understand what you're going through and we do care about you!
Big Hugs,
Judy
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Originally Posted by HideorSeek
PrettyPoison, I don't know you, but I admire your honesty and perseverance more than I can say. We alcoholics have brains on overdrive, battering us relentlessly with doubts about others and about ourselves (at least this alcoholic does). I am so proud of you for posting. The fact that you did that and are thinking through the drink shows how far you've come towards silencing this beast within us. You may not feel strong right now, but you sound to me as if you have the upper hand. I have faith in you, even if you don't right now. Your strength resonates through your words.
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Originally Posted by Horselover
I am so very glad you came to SR for help. This is HOW it should work for people and you are showing all newbies and everyone how it can work when applied. You definitely can get through this night and you have made a great start. I wish I could offer some words of wisdom, but its all been taken. Just know I am sending some prayers up for you and you have all the positive energy I can emit right now. God bless you for working it and facing it head on.
Thanks for reminding me that this is a positive example WE are setting, see you did offer wisdom
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Hope you are sober and well today Pretty. I am sorry I had to leave the boards last night. I hope you entered chat or pm'd some people. You did really good last night the way you utilized SR's tools. Check in when you can today. PM me if that's better for you. I will be away today for awhile, but will check in when I can. Thoughts are with you today. Hugs - Sarah
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It's nice to see a Januarian we've been wondering about, I'm sorry it's under these circumstances. Must be the moon or something. I'm there too (but not as extreme as you are). I just wanted to say that chat helps me alot, so stop by if you like. Usually there's nothing important going on so alot of us are available for instant support.
We still have a class of January thread, we'd love it if you kept in touch. I hope we hear from you today, no matter what last night brought.
We still have a class of January thread, we'd love it if you kept in touch. I hope we hear from you today, no matter what last night brought.
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I'm just so glad you posted. It helps me also to come here and vent or whine. Keeps those thoughts from running roughshod over my reality and my sobriety. When I express them it helps to defuse them, to make them less powerful.
Glad you reached out for help in a tough time. That's what we're here for, ya know! Support! And helping each other helps ourselves too.
Glad you reached out for help in a tough time. That's what we're here for, ya know! Support! And helping each other helps ourselves too.
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You have a million reasons to drink, none of them good. You have one reason not to drink, and it's beautiful. In my years of experience I have never, ever, seen anything good happen to someone because they took a drink. Your disease is working overtime and seizing on every possible excuse to get you to drink again. It seems that you've been doing a great job of fighting it off. Everyone before me here has offered excellent advice, and I have nothing more that I can offer except encouragement.
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Hey pretty...Just was thinking of you this am and hope that you are feeling better. I liked what you said about not cheating on yourself. Good words of wisdom for ME to remember, so thank you. Let us know how you are doing, OK?
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I wanted to update and let everyone know I did make it through last night -- and thanks to all of you. I don't know how I was able to log on and reach out instead of start my car and head to the store but I managed, whew, it was a tough one. I still have the same marital issue I had yesterday except I am calm and clear-headed to be able to deal with it. I'm relieved and grateful that I held on and didn't buy booze -- that would have made today a real disaster.
You guys are awesome and helped me through a really rough spot. That makes it easier to open up and come here (if there is a next time - yikes). I hope I set a good example for others who get to that desparate place -- hold on!!
Thank you my fellow SRians!
You guys are awesome and helped me through a really rough spot. That makes it easier to open up and come here (if there is a next time - yikes). I hope I set a good example for others who get to that desparate place -- hold on!!
Thank you my fellow SRians!
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I'm so happy to hear that you made it through last night and today! You showed an incredible amount of strength, more than you realized that you had. I hope that you won't "disappear" again, we need you, just like you need us.
God Bless,
Judy
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I am so glad you made it too.
I remember not too long ago..I wouldnt have even stopped long enough to think about reaching out. I would have been gone.
That took alot of strength and courage.
Keep it up.
I remember not too long ago..I wouldnt have even stopped long enough to think about reaching out. I would have been gone.
That took alot of strength and courage.
Keep it up.
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