I remember, like it was yesterday...
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I remember, like it was yesterday...
...I remember April 26th, 1994 like it was only last night. It was storming. Rain, thunder and lightning, you name it. I was so sick, I was shaking. My nose would bleed if I coughed. My hair was like straw, I was bloated, my skin was red and peeling. I could barely function. I was staying where ever I could, had two warrants out for my arrest, and my family had told me to never call again. I couldn't sleep, and I sure didn't want to be awake. Lets just say, it was the darkest time in my life.
....I thank God for those memories, I never ask to forget. I ask to be able to accept that I am no longer that person, which, I am happy to say, that I now can. You see, that was the last day I drank. Tomorrow, I will celebrate 15 years sober. But it is today I most remember, and it is today, that I pray I never forget.
...It is so important to my recovery, to NEVER forget where I came from. It is that memory, that helps me stay sober, one more day. I don't want to forget because I never want to go back there, and I know that when I forget how horrible it really was, I will start telling myself that it wasn't really that bad.
..I owe so many people thanks, for helping me get and stay sober, I can't even count them all. Including everyone here.
...For the newcomers, I know that the memories are hard, but if you embrace them, and forgive yourself for being sick, they can be one of the most powerful tools in your recovery.
Thanks...Cathy
....I thank God for those memories, I never ask to forget. I ask to be able to accept that I am no longer that person, which, I am happy to say, that I now can. You see, that was the last day I drank. Tomorrow, I will celebrate 15 years sober. But it is today I most remember, and it is today, that I pray I never forget.
...It is so important to my recovery, to NEVER forget where I came from. It is that memory, that helps me stay sober, one more day. I don't want to forget because I never want to go back there, and I know that when I forget how horrible it really was, I will start telling myself that it wasn't really that bad.
..I owe so many people thanks, for helping me get and stay sober, I can't even count them all. Including everyone here.
...For the newcomers, I know that the memories are hard, but if you embrace them, and forgive yourself for being sick, they can be one of the most powerful tools in your recovery.
Thanks...Cathy
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and I know that when I forget how horrible it really was, I will start telling myself that it wasn't really that bad.
how powerful cathy. happy 15 early..... and many more.
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Perfect post and respect to you. I just logged on here (after not being on so much in a while due to finding any talk of anything quite triggering) and your post was the first I saw.
Congratulations and thank you. Totally hit the spot *smile*. Keep giving hope.
Great signiture too.
Tsu
Just wanted to add-
I logged on now to remind myself of where I was not too long back. Keep saying it, but what a perfect post to log on to ^_^. I've been filling job applications and writing my dissertation all day and thinking 'man, what a cruel world'. Nice to get such a pleasant reality check. Cheers again!
Congratulations and thank you. Totally hit the spot *smile*. Keep giving hope.
Great signiture too.
Tsu
Just wanted to add-
I logged on now to remind myself of where I was not too long back. Keep saying it, but what a perfect post to log on to ^_^. I've been filling job applications and writing my dissertation all day and thinking 'man, what a cruel world'. Nice to get such a pleasant reality check. Cheers again!
Last edited by tsukiko; 04-26-2009 at 03:59 PM. Reason: Wanted to add something
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Cathy,
Congratulations on your sobriety!
I remember ever moment of the day I stopped drinking too. I really didn't know how I ended up in the situation I was in, but I do know that I have a choice about never going back there again.
Congratulations on your sobriety!
I remember ever moment of the day I stopped drinking too. I really didn't know how I ended up in the situation I was in, but I do know that I have a choice about never going back there again.
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Thank you so much for sharing. I am only 7 days sober, still going thru withdrawal and already thinking "maybe it wasn't that bad." So I sat down and listed all the physical symptoms and feelings I had the last day I drank. I'll keep going back to the list every time I have the urge.
Congratulations!
Congratulations!
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Great post Red!
Remembering my last run..Which wasnt too long ago. It has been helping me alot too.
Your right. If we lose sight of why we stopped..It will seem like it wasnt that bad.
Thank you for the reminder and for bein an inspiration.
You Rock!!
Remembering my last run..Which wasnt too long ago. It has been helping me alot too.
Your right. If we lose sight of why we stopped..It will seem like it wasnt that bad.
Thank you for the reminder and for bein an inspiration.
You Rock!!
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