9 days and counting!!!
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9 days and counting!!!
Hi everyone! I've made it 9 days. I already feel like a new person. I still think about pills,pills,pills all the time but I have resisted temptation so far. The worst part is I dream about Pills everynight. I dream of how good it feels to take them but then Im disappointed in myself in my dream. I guess its good that I feel so bad about taking pills even in my dreams. I made a really hard choice this weekend. I decieded to cut all the people out of my life that were my sources and enablers. That was hard because some were actually friends but until I get stronger I cant deal with the temptation they offer. I have to consenstrate on my recovery. I thank God for the rewarding feeling I have when I end each day sober and stronger than before. Although its still hard I find that each day I wake ready to take on this demon instead of being afraid of it. I thank everyone on this site that has supported me you have no idea how much this has helped me. Today is a good day to be alive and actually feel alive.:ghug
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Congrats Grace on your day 9 - great start.. sounds like you are having some rewards already - feeling your sobriety.. Thanks for posting and letting us know how it is going for you... Keep it up! The rewards are huge!
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Hey Grace!
CONGRATULATIONS!!! That is toooooo exciting! I can totally relate to your pill dreams - I also am struggling with this obsession to get high, and I was also a huge pill head. But, when I get cravings or just that intense urge to use, I try to hit a face to face meeting, call my sponsor, or exercise/read/watch a movie.
So far, so good.
Congrats, again, stay safe!
Rach
CONGRATULATIONS!!! That is toooooo exciting! I can totally relate to your pill dreams - I also am struggling with this obsession to get high, and I was also a huge pill head. But, when I get cravings or just that intense urge to use, I try to hit a face to face meeting, call my sponsor, or exercise/read/watch a movie.
So far, so good.
Congrats, again, stay safe!
Rach
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Originally Posted by grace33 
Hi everyone! I've made it 9 days. I already feel like a new person. I still think about pills,pills,pills all the time but I have resisted temptation so far. The worst part is I dream about Pills everynight. I dream of how good it feels to take them but then Im disappointed in myself in my dream.
The dreams, I think, are pretty normal. I started having them when I first started trying to get clean. I'd dream about smoking crack and wake up feeling awful from them. Sometimes, they were so vivid, I actually woke up thinking I HAD been out all night smoking crack. I'd check my clothes and my surroundings, and even ask friends about my own whereabouts! Seriously! They will pass, eventually. I don't have my dreams anymore. They can be a bit upsetting, I understand that.
I had one, when I tried to quit smoking cigarettes. I figured it was my mind's way of telling me it wasn't time to give up that habit just yet. Some people can give it all up, but apparently I am not one of them. LOLOLOL
Congrats, again! Keep coming back to SR!
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