Antone

I am Antone and have 33 days sober today. I got a phone call from a close friend the other night. This friend is remarkably intelligent, humorous, and entertaining to talk to - he is also a binge drinker. He sounded drunk when he called. What I found is that I didn't find the discussion so interesting this time. He was high energy in his inebriation, but I felt satisfied in just being myself instead of getting caught up in what felt like a drunken performance. This is a very old friend with whom I have been very close, we grew up together. He kept saying to me, "Am I boring you?" I was not intentionally acting bored or disinterested. My attention just wasn't grabbed by his admittedly humorous remarks and insights. On some level, after I hung up, I felt like I had been true to myself and that felt good. It was like I saw through something or into something I had been missing for many years. I've been sober for stretches before, but this time the commitment feels much deeper.

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I always drank alone, so haven't been around any drunken people. But it's good enough for me to just not be around myself in a drunken state.

Welcome!:ghug3

Anna

Hi and congratulations on your sobriety.

It sounds like you are learning more about yourself and getting some perspective on yourself and your life.

sfgirl

I definitely identify with what you are saying. Similar things have happened to me. On the one hand it sort of sucks to lose those experiences in a sense. But on the other it is so much better to live more authentically.

OZboy

Yeah, I can relate!
I'm a funny guy and now I remember the jokes I tell and hear.
great your hear...................

Rusty Zipper

your get'n better antone!

penny74

"I've been sober for stretches before, but this time the commitment feels much deeper"

That must be a good feeling..!!
Keep thet feeling !

'Begin at the beginning,' the King said gravely, 'and go on till you come to the end: then stop.'
-- Lewis Carroll (Alice in Wonderland