60 Days CLEAN!
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60 Days CLEAN!
Well, today is the day. I feel like singing, running, and could hardly sleep last night. I finally MADE it more than 20 days, without substituting or lying about it... WOW. I almost feel I could do anything now. No more weekends running the rat race, no more trying to figure out how much I can get away with or who I can scam into giving me gas money, cuz I spent all of mine on crack. No more ripping of HIS parents or my Mother. No more selling my possessions.. I still lie, occasionally, I think more out of being human and habit, but I don't lie about using crack or trying to hide my addiction. I actually look forward to the warmer months. What a wonderful world. Not perfect, but then I am more realistic. There is no such thing as perfect. And best of all, I get my son tomorrow and I can tell him Mommy has been off the drugs for 60 days and counting! 
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Thank you, everyone. I am so happy. I feel so free. Even on this dreary day of clouds, wind, and rain, I am not smoking crack. I was kinda bummed that I am not able to get myself a special "birthday treat" for staying clean, but found out my boyfriend is going to take me to Fricker's Tuesday for wing night. I FREAKING love those wings! I am gonna order 20 and eat them all. hahahaha.. Ok, I can't eat 20, but I can eat 10, enjoy a nice pasta salad, and a Pepsi. I CAN HARDLY wait.. hehehe. I haven't had those wings in forever!!!!
Pinkgurl87, yes, it is extremely hard. Just remember to do your best and, I hope you do not, but if you relapse, please don't beat yourself up. PICK yourself up and try to find what went wrong (stresses, triggers, etc.) and avoid them. It's hard work, but it's SO worth it. This is the first time I attempted to stay clean and didn't substitute or use and tell people I didn't use... It's worth it. Everyone else can look at me like a nut, but I am so proud of myself. It makes me so damned happy.. But wow, thank you. I've never been an inspiration to someone, or done something to inspire them before! WOW! That really brings tears to my eyes!!!!!
Pinkgurl87, yes, it is extremely hard. Just remember to do your best and, I hope you do not, but if you relapse, please don't beat yourself up. PICK yourself up and try to find what went wrong (stresses, triggers, etc.) and avoid them. It's hard work, but it's SO worth it. This is the first time I attempted to stay clean and didn't substitute or use and tell people I didn't use... It's worth it. Everyone else can look at me like a nut, but I am so proud of myself. It makes me so damned happy.. But wow, thank you. I've never been an inspiration to someone, or done something to inspire them before! WOW! That really brings tears to my eyes!!!!!
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Thanks everyone! Really! I picked up my first green key tag. It's so beautiful. I love it. I almost want to frame the darned thing, but then I know I will want to frame the rest of them.. And don't have enough money for that, just yet! hahahaha...
I usually don't get online during the weekends, but I was out running errands and stopped by my friend's house and hopped online for a bit. I wanted to read more of the inspirational stories and welcome newbies like myself. LOL.
Wish I could take a pic of my green tag, but my camera got stolen months and months ago..
But it's OK. I'll get a new one someday. Or maybe I can take a decent pic with my phone.. LOLOLOL.
OK, enough silliness. I've got to go to the store and get supplies for my son's birthday party!
Thanks again, everyone!!! *HUGS*
I usually don't get online during the weekends, but I was out running errands and stopped by my friend's house and hopped online for a bit. I wanted to read more of the inspirational stories and welcome newbies like myself. LOL.
Wish I could take a pic of my green tag, but my camera got stolen months and months ago..
But it's OK. I'll get a new one someday. Or maybe I can take a decent pic with my phone.. LOLOLOL.
OK, enough silliness. I've got to go to the store and get supplies for my son's birthday party!
Thanks again, everyone!!! *HUGS*
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I'm glad you able to stay clean hun thanks for the comments you made to me so far now on day 4 hoping to make it through the day without using. Keep up the good work hun and it's ok to be proud of yourself, actually that is a good thing. Keep being proud of yourself just don't forget where you came from and the struggle it took to get where you are.
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Congratulations!!!
Sixty days free of the crack demon is fantabulous!! As much as I thought I loved that stuff when I was using, the longer I'm away from it, the more I hate it and what it did to my life.
The great news is, we can recover..just like you're doing!! Your favorite wings, birthday party for your son...now THAT'S the great stuff in life!
((pinkgurl)) - hang in there, sweetie..none of us got any length of time without doing it one day at a time...sometimes one HOUR at a time.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
Sixty days free of the crack demon is fantabulous!! As much as I thought I loved that stuff when I was using, the longer I'm away from it, the more I hate it and what it did to my life.
The great news is, we can recover..just like you're doing!! Your favorite wings, birthday party for your son...now THAT'S the great stuff in life!
((pinkgurl)) - hang in there, sweetie..none of us got any length of time without doing it one day at a time...sometimes one HOUR at a time.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
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