Newcomers with experience
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Newcomers with experience
As a person who at one time had almost 20 years of sobriety and a relapse of approx. 8 years and now with 21 days back, I look around at the damage I alone caused and have been humbled and brought to my knees by this chronic and fatal disease. The story about the shepard (God or your higher power) who tends his flock of 100 sheep loves them all equally but pays very close attention to the one who has wondered to the edge of the cliff, he wants that sheep back more than all else,us. I right that little pass me on because at this point in my life I have severly damaged my relationship with the 2 most important people in my life, my daughters. This is just a message of hope and that we are not alone and I say that because it is to reinforce what I know but do not feel at this time in my life. Godspeed all. All replies welcome.
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Always like to pick the brain of someone that, had that long of time
Why did you go back out?
How bad did it get for you to come back?
I got an ego the size of Texas, not sure, my pride would let me come back that, and I've got a good core group where I live. We spend a great deal of time doing things outside the meetings. I open the church up on Thursday nights. I was late one night, my cell phone didn't stop ringing with people sitting in their cars worried about me
Welcome to the site btw
Your ESH is greatly needed
Chris
Why did you go back out?
How bad did it get for you to come back?
I got an ego the size of Texas, not sure, my pride would let me come back that, and I've got a good core group where I live. We spend a great deal of time doing things outside the meetings. I open the church up on Thursday nights. I was late one night, my cell phone didn't stop ringing with people sitting in their cars worried about me
Welcome to the site btw
Your ESH is greatly needed
Chris
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Originally Posted by bobpepper17 
As a person who at one time had almost 20 years of sobriety and a relapse of approx. 8 years and now with 21 days back, I look around at the damage I alone caused and have been humbled and brought to my knees by this chronic and fatal disease. The story about the shepard (God or your higher power) who tends his flock of 100 sheep loves them all equally but pays very close attention to the one who has wondered to the edge of the cliff, he wants that sheep back more than all else,us. I right that little pass me on because at this point in my life I have severly damaged my relationship with the 2 most important people in my life, my daughters. This is just a message of hope and that we are not alone and I say that because it is to reinforce what I know but do not feel at this time in my life. Godspeed all. All replies welcome.
Glad to see you made it back, your story is fairly similar to mine, though I've been back a few more days than you.
Keep coming back, you'll find a lot of support here.
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Originally Posted by bobpepper17
Thanks Chris but don't know enough about how to talk to you. I am new to this
Just keep adding to the post.
I've been on here so long, I didn't know there was a post count for PM's
Might be to stop spammers
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Welcome back bp,
My story is like yours except that I never stopped drinking. What I mean by that is that I caused so many problems with my family, lost my wife and hurt everyone I held dear with my alcohol abuse. I've drank for over thirty years and just joined last month, so the fact that you came back gives us newcomers hope becuase you didn't just drift away, you had the strength to come back. You mentioned that this is a chronic and fatal disease. I remember when I was married, my wife took me to detox one night at the emergency room of our local hospital, and when they checked me in, the nurse wrote, "chronic alcoholic" on my file. Sick as I was, I thought of it as a badge of honor. Really sick stuff.
Welcome back.
My story is like yours except that I never stopped drinking. What I mean by that is that I caused so many problems with my family, lost my wife and hurt everyone I held dear with my alcohol abuse. I've drank for over thirty years and just joined last month, so the fact that you came back gives us newcomers hope becuase you didn't just drift away, you had the strength to come back. You mentioned that this is a chronic and fatal disease. I remember when I was married, my wife took me to detox one night at the emergency room of our local hospital, and when they checked me in, the nurse wrote, "chronic alcoholic" on my file. Sick as I was, I thought of it as a badge of honor. Really sick stuff.
Welcome back.
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Welcome,
I am a newbie with experience also, I had 5 years sober then thought I could moderate. Then I had some major losses in my life and went right back to bingeing on the weekends. Getting back on track with this being day 8.
IMT
I am a newbie with experience also, I had 5 years sober then thought I could moderate. Then I had some major losses in my life and went right back to bingeing on the weekends. Getting back on track with this being day 8.
IMT
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Bob & Firestorm, I'm also a lifelong drinker with over a year sober now. I once had 3 yrs. without a drop, but accepted a glass of wine from a friend without even thinking twice, & was off again for 7 yrs. This time it almost killed me. 3 DUI's - but worst of all, ruined relationships with family members. They just didn't get it ("just say no") & I was too out of it to try and explain rationally. Now that I could talk to them about it without babbling like a fool, they're not interested. Bob I hope your daughters can somehow come to understand what you've been through. It's so hard to explain it to those who haven't a clue what it's like to be us. Sending love and hope to you.
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Bobpepper,
Welcome back. I like you had alot of time of recovery before I went back out. Keep coming back.
"A pearl is a beautiful thing that is produced by an injured life. It is the tear [that results] from the injury of the oyster. The treasure of our being in this world is also produced by an injured life. If we had not been wounded, if we had not been injured, then we will not produce the pearl."
Stephan Hoeller
Welcome back. I like you had alot of time of recovery before I went back out. Keep coming back.
"A pearl is a beautiful thing that is produced by an injured life. It is the tear [that results] from the injury of the oyster. The treasure of our being in this world is also produced by an injured life. If we had not been wounded, if we had not been injured, then we will not produce the pearl."
Stephan Hoeller
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welcome back bob, I had 20 years drug free and then relapsed. This time I have a simple program and I paractice daily as best I can with other addicts in recovery.
Glad your here.
Kevin
Glad your here.
Kevin
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