CHANGE: A year later...
CHANGE: A year later...
My Choice is to avoid counting days of sobriety. Today, though:
Via a search engine, I found SR in 2006, though I only became a member a year ago today. (As usual, the past haunts me)
A year ago today, I posted about my decision for an addiction-free life. The decision seemed unfamiliar yet present. Sstrange, but right. After many years of struggle, despair and hardship, I had had enough. It was uncanny. Though that life was familiar to me, it was no longer mine. I was scared of changing.
Thanks to that decision, I still feel the same way today: here in SR - thanks to you - I have learned the power of form, forgiveness, companionship, respect and truth.
I expected bliss to accompany my initial determination. Some foolishness prevented me from finding it when I got lost, but I was enough lucky to have you show me the way again. A bit of your determination became my own; knowing that "changing" did not mean turning into somebody else is what held the key.
Each and everyone of us deserve wonder; let's go for it!
Via a search engine, I found SR in 2006, though I only became a member a year ago today. (As usual, the past haunts me)
A year ago today, I posted about my decision for an addiction-free life. The decision seemed unfamiliar yet present. Sstrange, but right. After many years of struggle, despair and hardship, I had had enough. It was uncanny. Though that life was familiar to me, it was no longer mine. I was scared of changing.
Thanks to that decision, I still feel the same way today: here in SR - thanks to you - I have learned the power of form, forgiveness, companionship, respect and truth.
I expected bliss to accompany my initial determination. Some foolishness prevented me from finding it when I got lost, but I was enough lucky to have you show me the way again. A bit of your determination became my own; knowing that "changing" did not mean turning into somebody else is what held the key.
Each and everyone of us deserve wonder; let's go for it!
Last edited by Mattcake; 02-21-2009 at 03:33 PM. Reason: Ghastly spelling and grammar
Sobriety rocks! I certainly didn't feel this way a year ago. Back then, sobriety was something to be endured. Now, though, I know that sobriety is the one key that enables us to fully experience ourselves and others. I think that, once this seed is firmly planted, it's hard to go back.
Beautiful Matt!
And, yes, change does not mean becoming someone else, it means finding our true self.
I think in sobriety, we learn that all our experiences in life, are for a purpose. And, in fact, things are not necessarily negative or positive - they just are and we need to stay open and willing to learn.
Matt, it's wonderful to see your growth and thanks for sharing your generous spirit.
:ghug3
And, yes, change does not mean becoming someone else, it means finding our true self.
I think in sobriety, we learn that all our experiences in life, are for a purpose. And, in fact, things are not necessarily negative or positive - they just are and we need to stay open and willing to learn.
Matt, it's wonderful to see your growth and thanks for sharing your generous spirit.
:ghug3
we all adore our Mattycakes .. thanks for being in our lives , youve touched mine and many others . we love ya ............... keep coming back ... your friend and family memeber of SR Endzy
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