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you will all be disappointed in me. got another hateful email from daughter and i lost it, got stinking drunk. i knew it was the wrong thing to do but did it anyway. i am so lost and now i feel as badly as i deserve to feel. did n't sleep well last night, fromthe wine and the upset. now i'm starting over again. i am so sick of myself and my miserable existance. just want to curl up into a ball and hide in a corner or in a cave somewhere. but i can't do that, so have to deal with my sorry self. i'm such an idiot. i used to like being alone, i didn't mind it, but now i hate being alone cause i'm faced with myself and that's scary and unpleasant.

i'm sorry i let you all down. i'm sorry that my only feeling lately is being sorry. i'm starting all over being sober, again, but i'm so sick of myself for giving in to the hurt by drinking. i feel like such a loser. i'm sorrye136:

Dee74

I'm sorry S. I understand - but every drink you take lands you deeper in the mire of despair.

The only way out of this is to do something different.

See your Dr, contact welfare agencies, churches, whatever - regardless of your financial situation, you should be able to access some personal, and financial, counselling.

Start making enquiries today. Stop the rot now.

You can do this.
Start paddling towards the shore, S.

D

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you're right Dee. i will lay this all on my counselor tomorrow (my last two appts were cancelled) and ask her advice and social connections. today is a new day and maybe i won't make any mistakes, at least, not the same mistakes as yesterday. thank you all for caring, it helps.:ghug

Dee74

good on you, S.

hugs
D

WLDKATZ

Least Honey your breaking my heart I just wish I could give you a big hug and tell you everything will be alright, but I have never lied to you and I won't start now it is hard and the harder you get down on yourself and the more power you let the kids ( yes even that thing of a roomy) have over you makes it worse please please get rid of her honey I know you want your money but think of it like this.........she is your bottle and you need to put it down, think of what you would have if she was gone and you didnt have to carry her and her bills.......but I totally agree with Dee..........please get some more support if anyone deserves it it has got to be you............but above all take it just one second at a time if need be..................


Love Ya!
Pamm

PS don't forget the dogs, they need you to take them out and feed them today, it is a beautiful day here, hopefully there too take them for another walk????then come home for that hot shower and meal.............take care of you even if it IS threw your dogs ( Our babies) you know it took me pulling threw for my Baby Girl..........it can be done least!!!!!!!!

SerenityGirl

(((Least))) Hugs and Prayers!!!! Hang in there, there is hope!!

IO Storm

And more! :ghug3 :ghug3

Iriss

My thoughts and prayers are with you x

Sugah