nogard

with my head going off, telling me that I will loose the house (probably true) and that I will be on the streets with nothing... I rang around but everyone is busy this time on a Monday morning so I am reaching out here.

When my dialogue goes off like this it freezes out everything else in my head and my heart.

Off to talk to my HP and do some housework

Thanks. Feeling better already

Kevin

CarolD

Prayers for your peace Kevin...:Mega

lisa t

hang in there kevin...stay in the now...you can only do what you can do and what will be will be...that is something i work on everyday! after 2 yrs sober i am still dealing with the financial fall out of my drinking days...probably going to end up being sued by the credit card companies i owe so much money to and can't pay but you know what...can't get blood from a stone and i know drinking is definitely not going to make the situation better! so i try to keep it in the day and do what i can today..which some days is just stay sober and do nothing else! try to get that rat on the wheel in your head to slow down...go for a walk, watch a little tv...whatever you need to do. i feel for ya and i'm glad you're here and posting! Big hugs..you can do this!! Lisa

gypsytears

Hugs Kev. Whatever is going to happen will happen. Using won't change it so I know you won't go there. You're industrious and strong. I'm sure things will work out for the best.

barnes

During the worst moments, I try to focus on the immediate. There is the saying "One day at a time" but sometimes a day can seem like an eternity. Sometimes I have to take life one hour at a time. During a very serious crisis, I need to take life a minute at a time. I try to remember to breathe in, carefully, through the nose, and exhale through the mouth, as if I was doing meditation. Anything that might help keep the panic away. Staying calm is the most important thing I can do for myself. It is the most important thing I can do for anyone.

Anna

Kev,

I hope you find peace too.

I have that kind of anxiety happen to me too and it's not fun. I do find that controlled breathing helps. I'm glad you came here.

nogard

Thanks everyone that realy helps.

I have always had this head thing that when things go wrong I need someone to tell me it will all be ok or go even further and fix it but of course neither of those things work at all, its all part of my dialogue. I guess it comes from my distance past and only now am I exposing these things to the light and able to leave them behind or at the very least not act on them.

I am still here (thanks barnes for the reminder ) and doing it one hour at a time and carefully monitoring my thoughts, right now I am chanting the serentity prayer, the 3rd step prayer and the prayer or mantra below.

Not posting here and not talking to others because I thought I should know it all by now (more dialogue of this friggin dis ease), has cost me so much and I will never do that again.

Thanks

Kevin

May I be filled with loving Kindness
May I be well
May I be at peace and at ease
May I be happy

and you can replace the 'I' with any name you like.

least

Hugs and prayers going out to you Kevin!:ghug3

:praying

Aysha

Glad your feeling better.
Hang in there and try and relax.
My mind has been on overdrive too lately.

nogard

Trish:
Thanks Trish thats just our disease, I call it 'the dialogue' in early days I would wake up and it was like a little bugger sitting on the end of my bed saying, "glad your awake I have been waiting to tell you what a **** up you are and...."

Its always close by if I allow it to be by not talking to others and to a power greater than me as well as facing up to and putting myself right with others HP and myself.

Hang in there Trish I have freedom these days and I realise thats because I accept what is.

Kevin

coffeenut

Hey.....I'm so glad you came here. Just know we truly care about you.

nogard

Thanks coffeenut, I cant do this without you.

snowdog

Nogard- sending good thoughts your way!

Rowan

Hey Kev - glad you posted. It's always a treat to hear from you. There are areas in my life today which cause considerable distress - but the mental anguish is eased whenever I share it with another. Hugs, hope you have a good day.

ToABetterMe

Sorry! :praying

nogard

Awesome, just awesome, having all this support and my program, tonight I feel blessed and fortunate.

Grateful for every single one of you.

Kevin

stone

nogard

Mate