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Good morning!
I've been a heavy drinker for 30+ years. Getting sober only a few times, usually 9 months while pregnant, once for 2 years. The past two years my drinking really escalated and last summer a 12 pack of beer was not enough to get me through each night.
I found this website in October and have been reading on here since. I tried to detox myself in November and didn't make it. On January 4 I had my 16 year old son drop me off at detox where I spent 3 days safely detoxing. I was really sick for over a week. Reading on here really helped me to understand what to expect. I had never gotten sick that bad when I had quit drinking in the past but it had been 9 years since I was last sober.
I did good for 16 days and then I messed up again. That one time turned into five times. From Tuesday thru Friday last week I only had one sober day. I scared myself and managed to not drink yesterday, so I'm on day two again. Last night I got on this forum and noticed that the last time I had been on here was two days before I messed up.
I plan to be on here reading everyday again. This forum is a big help. I truly do want to be sober. In the past I have always quit for someone else, this time I am quitting for me. I have wasted enough of my life and want to live the rest of it.
Thanks for listening.
I've been a heavy drinker for 30+ years. Getting sober only a few times, usually 9 months while pregnant, once for 2 years. The past two years my drinking really escalated and last summer a 12 pack of beer was not enough to get me through each night.
I found this website in October and have been reading on here since. I tried to detox myself in November and didn't make it. On January 4 I had my 16 year old son drop me off at detox where I spent 3 days safely detoxing. I was really sick for over a week. Reading on here really helped me to understand what to expect. I had never gotten sick that bad when I had quit drinking in the past but it had been 9 years since I was last sober.
I did good for 16 days and then I messed up again. That one time turned into five times. From Tuesday thru Friday last week I only had one sober day. I scared myself and managed to not drink yesterday, so I'm on day two again. Last night I got on this forum and noticed that the last time I had been on here was two days before I messed up.
I plan to be on here reading everyday again. This forum is a big help. I truly do want to be sober. In the past I have always quit for someone else, this time I am quitting for me. I have wasted enough of my life and want to live the rest of it.
Thanks for listening.
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Hi Jane,
Welcome!
I'm glad to hear that you are ready to quit drinking for yourself.
What changes do you plan to make in your life, besides stopping drinking?
I hope you keep reading and posting.
Welcome!
I'm glad to hear that you are ready to quit drinking for yourself.
What changes do you plan to make in your life, besides stopping drinking?
I hope you keep reading and posting.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: MN
Posts: 528
Hi Jane (fellow Minnesotan!)
I'm glad you found your way back here! There is so much support, and wisedom here. So many in different stages of recovery. I hope you stay, read, post, share.
We are all here for the same purpose, to live a better sober life!
Hope you stay! I know for many of us, this is our only real support system & rely on eachother much to get us through each day!
I'm glad you found your way back here! There is so much support, and wisedom here. So many in different stages of recovery. I hope you stay, read, post, share.
We are all here for the same purpose, to live a better sober life!
Hope you stay! I know for many of us, this is our only real support system & rely on eachother much to get us through each day!
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Toronto, Ontario
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Originally Posted by Jane47 
Good morning!
Iad been on here was two days before I messed up.
In the past I have always quit for someone else, this time I am quitting for me. I have wasted enough of my life and want to live the rest of it.
Thanks for listening.
Iad been on here was two days before I messed up.
In the past I have always quit for someone else, this time I am quitting for me. I have wasted enough of my life and want to live the rest of it.
Thanks for listening.
Good luck and come and read and post when the desire to use comes calling. Good luck.
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: uk
Posts: 2,548
hi jane and welcome............you are amongst friends..
I can empathize with your fear............full on de-tox is not nice.
The fear of slipping into the abyss again...........i can also relate to that.
Ive done detoxs.....came out and drank again.....i remember trying to hold back the full on alcoholism...and feeling overwhelmed..
The main thing to focus on is you have two days...........the past is the past.
Move foward...take one day at a time.
Here you will find the biggest bunch of nice people i have ever come across.
So rather than just reading....keep posting......let us all know how you are.
Above all be good to yourself and god be with you.......
And remember you are not alone...............trucker
I can empathize with your fear............full on de-tox is not nice.
The fear of slipping into the abyss again...........i can also relate to that.
Ive done detoxs.....came out and drank again.....i remember trying to hold back the full on alcoholism...and feeling overwhelmed..
The main thing to focus on is you have two days...........the past is the past.
Move foward...take one day at a time.
Here you will find the biggest bunch of nice people i have ever come across.
So rather than just reading....keep posting......let us all know how you are.
Above all be good to yourself and god be with you.......
And remember you are not alone...............trucker
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: New Hampshire
Posts: 396
I can totally relate to what you're saying. When I started buying a 12 pack for a Saturday is when I seriously started to admit that I had a problem. Recently I've tried on my own and never made it through the weekend. This past thursday I decided today is the day and got myself to an AA meeting for the first time. On my own, without anyone nagging me. I think it was the best thing I've done so far. I know I'll make it through today even if I have to find a meeting.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Canada
Posts: 367
Hi Jane!
Eventually something just seems to click in the brain and you come to
the realization that this is it, you MUST quit and lead a sober life.
Sounds like you've got that 'click'.
Keep reading , and posting.
This site, and the people here, can help more than my words can express.
9 Days sober here and it's a brand new beautiful world!
You can do it!
Good luck, and stick around.
Eventually something just seems to click in the brain and you come to
the realization that this is it, you MUST quit and lead a sober life.
Sounds like you've got that 'click'.
Keep reading , and posting.
This site, and the people here, can help more than my words can express.
9 Days sober here and it's a brand new beautiful world!
You can do it!
Good luck, and stick around.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: New Hampshire
Posts: 396
I agree with Richard
Something just "clicked" with me as well. It was time to change my direction and enjoy the rest of my life without feeling guilty every morning. I had to get out of that vicious circle.
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: Minnesota
Posts: 138
Thanks a lot everyone for all the support.
I know one thing I will be doing different is making sure I come to this forum everyday and anytime the demon comes knocking.
It is so comforting to know there are other people out there that know how I feel and what I am going through. I have the support of my five sons here, co workers and boss and a few friends but they don't really "know" what it's like.
I have been to AA in the past and didn't like it, but I'm thinking maybe I should give a few meetings a try again, maybe to find some sober friends and to have something to do at night besides sitting home, which is where I have done most of my drinking.
I know one thing I will be doing different is making sure I come to this forum everyday and anytime the demon comes knocking.
It is so comforting to know there are other people out there that know how I feel and what I am going through. I have the support of my five sons here, co workers and boss and a few friends but they don't really "know" what it's like.
I have been to AA in the past and didn't like it, but I'm thinking maybe I should give a few meetings a try again, maybe to find some sober friends and to have something to do at night besides sitting home, which is where I have done most of my drinking.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome Jane! Glad you found us and joined the family! THis is such a great place for support as we understand addictions very well. You can stay sober, just don't drink for today. Repeat every morning. You can do this.:ghug3
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