Lies of the Addict Voice
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My addict voice has been telling me that I'm making a drama out of nothing and that I'm not really an alcoholic!! Horrible horrible, my life was full of drama and chaos becuse of things I did when drunk so I'm ignoring this voice, I know its WRONG!!
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Wow, thanks for the shares guys, it helps so much to know that I'm not the only one!
Trucker, I love your "sidewinder" theory... it's so true. It's like as soon as you have the first-line attacks figured out, it comes up with another way to trick you!
Today mine was saying that there are lots more meaningful sobriety dates than 1/1... why don't you try it again sometime when it's less cliche? Also... you have a few more drunken good times in you before you really get into trouble!
As if it was ever really "good times".
Trucker, I love your "sidewinder" theory... it's so true. It's like as soon as you have the first-line attacks figured out, it comes up with another way to trick you!
Today mine was saying that there are lots more meaningful sobriety dates than 1/1... why don't you try it again sometime when it's less cliche? Also... you have a few more drunken good times in you before you really get into trouble!
As if it was ever really "good times".
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WOW! This is such a good post! I don't think there's any I could add to those because each and every one of them apply to me! I want to print this out and make a opy to put everywhere, on my refrigerator, on the mirror, in my purse...
Thank you!
Thank you!
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I'm glad everyone's getting something out of this thread!
Today my addict voice is acting like a spoiled, angry two-year-old. I've been feeling sorry for myself all afternoon that I can't drink, it's not fair, why can't I be like other people, blah blah blah. Just kind of in a bad mood about this tonight. But, as loud as this tantrum is, I'm still not going to drink tonight. Tomorrow is 30 days!
Today my addict voice is acting like a spoiled, angry two-year-old. I've been feeling sorry for myself all afternoon that I can't drink, it's not fair, why can't I be like other people, blah blah blah. Just kind of in a bad mood about this tonight. But, as loud as this tantrum is, I'm still not going to drink tonight. Tomorrow is 30 days!
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My "Alcoholic/Addict voice" tells me that "I can have just one"... one bottle and no more! That I can keep it a "secret" from my sponsor, family & friends.... that it'll be okay and "No one will know"!
What'a CROCK! First, I can't have "just one" of anything! Secondly, I'd have too much guilt to NOT tell on myself! Third, It'll NEVER be okay and it's never been okay after taking that 1st drink for a long time now! It doesn't ever end in the way that demon talks to me and coos me into thinking - "It'll be different this time". LOL LOL LOL... all the way to the bottom of the abyss! NOT!
Thanks for this thread! A great reminder of really what we're up against and need to be wary of!
What'a CROCK! First, I can't have "just one" of anything! Secondly, I'd have too much guilt to NOT tell on myself! Third, It'll NEVER be okay and it's never been okay after taking that 1st drink for a long time now! It doesn't ever end in the way that demon talks to me and coos me into thinking - "It'll be different this time". LOL LOL LOL... all the way to the bottom of the abyss! NOT!
Thanks for this thread! A great reminder of really what we're up against and need to be wary of!
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Oh my gosh, you are so right about it finding new ways to trick you! As soon as you think you've figured it out, it blindsides you from some opposite direction.
Today it was trying to convince me that I should try just one more time to be a social drinker only. Since I did most of my drinking at home, alone, social drinking wasn't the problem... but it certainly led to the problem starting over again! Still, my voice wants me to think I have control now, and everything will be okay "this time".
And when all else fails, it says, yeah, you're an alcoholic, but why don't you just drink now and quit some other time?
Today it was trying to convince me that I should try just one more time to be a social drinker only. Since I did most of my drinking at home, alone, social drinking wasn't the problem... but it certainly led to the problem starting over again! Still, my voice wants me to think I have control now, and everything will be okay "this time".
And when all else fails, it says, yeah, you're an alcoholic, but why don't you just drink now and quit some other time?
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Originally Posted by colagirl 
Oh my gosh, you are so right about it finding new ways to trick you! As soon as you think you've figured it out, it blindsides you from some opposite direction.
Today it was trying to convince me that I should try just one more time to be a social drinker only. Since I did most of my drinking at home, alone, social drinking wasn't the problem... but it certainly led to the problem starting over again! Still, my voice wants me to think I have control now, and everything will be okay "this time".
And when all else fails, it says, yeah, you're an alcoholic, but why don't you just drink now and quit some other time?
Today it was trying to convince me that I should try just one more time to be a social drinker only. Since I did most of my drinking at home, alone, social drinking wasn't the problem... but it certainly led to the problem starting over again! Still, my voice wants me to think I have control now, and everything will be okay "this time".
And when all else fails, it says, yeah, you're an alcoholic, but why don't you just drink now and quit some other time?
YES
mine is always like "yes, you can control it! suuuure! " LIES!!!
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Originally Posted by colagirl
Today it was trying to convince me that I should try just one more time to be a social drinker only. Since I did most of my drinking at home, alone, social drinking wasn't the problem... but it certainly led to the problem starting over again! Still, my voice wants me to think I have control now, and everything will be okay "this time".
"CUNNING, BAFFLING & POWERFUL....WITHOUT HELP, IT IS TOO MUCH FOR US!!!!!" !!!
That's why we need eachother and support!!! Left to our own devices -- our head -- we will surely drink again! For me today: God, SR, AA, church, family and friends!!! I'm networking myself around a bunch of people so I don't fall without having at least the hands there to help me "beforehand". I've been down this road too many times on my own "trying" to stay sober... It worked long enough to get me drunk again!
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It will be different this time!!! Well, the voice was right, it is different this time, in that everything is now ten times worse than the last time. I hate the voice. Strange, when I'm all sick and hungover the voice is veeerrry quiet.:wtf2
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