Why I decided to quit drinking
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Why I decided to quit drinking
Someone here asked me a couple of days ago, in a PM, what made me decide to quit drinking.
Of course there is much more to the story, but this was my quick brief reply to her. I don't think she will mind me posting it here.
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What made me decide to quit?
Well, I think my insides are pickled.
My spleen is enlarged, and I'm pretty sure I have liver damage.
While I once thought I enjoyed the effects of alcohol,
now I hate what it is doing to me and my life.
We're reasonably well off, have a nice condo,boat, pickup and a motorcycle.
I have had quite a bit of time off my work in the last year, I'm kinda semi-retired,
but I've been too drunk to enjoy it, or any of my toys.
I used to be a reasonbly good jazz guitarist, loved it, was a passion in my life,
but I havn't picked up any of my guitars in ages and ages, all I wanted to do was drink,
and I can't play the way I want to when I'm drunk.
I'm sick of spending about $800 / month, on booze.
Going to a different liquor store every day, because I was embarrassed at
how much I was buying.
I'm sick of sneaking up the back stairs of my building with flats of beer every day,
hoping the neighbors didn't see me.
I'm sick of sneaking out with a hand truck full of empties twice a week, to the recycle depot,
hoping nobody would see me.
I'm sick of the isolation from family and friends, Not being able to enjoy
dinners out or lunches cuz I'm too drunk or just simply too shaky to do anything.
I'm scared if I don't smarten up right now, that it is quickly going to be too late,
and I am going to die, or possibly even commit suicide, cuz the booze has been literally turning
me into a mental case.
I want to watch my granddaughter grow up, She is only ten, and I'm missing too much
that this life has to offer, by being a full time drunk.
I have to change, and I'm sober today and I'm lovin' it...
:-)
Of course there is much more to the story, but this was my quick brief reply to her. I don't think she will mind me posting it here.
*******
What made me decide to quit?
Well, I think my insides are pickled.
My spleen is enlarged, and I'm pretty sure I have liver damage.
While I once thought I enjoyed the effects of alcohol,
now I hate what it is doing to me and my life.
We're reasonably well off, have a nice condo,boat, pickup and a motorcycle.
I have had quite a bit of time off my work in the last year, I'm kinda semi-retired,
but I've been too drunk to enjoy it, or any of my toys.
I used to be a reasonbly good jazz guitarist, loved it, was a passion in my life,
but I havn't picked up any of my guitars in ages and ages, all I wanted to do was drink,
and I can't play the way I want to when I'm drunk.
I'm sick of spending about $800 / month, on booze.
Going to a different liquor store every day, because I was embarrassed at
how much I was buying.
I'm sick of sneaking up the back stairs of my building with flats of beer every day,
hoping the neighbors didn't see me.
I'm sick of sneaking out with a hand truck full of empties twice a week, to the recycle depot,
hoping nobody would see me.
I'm sick of the isolation from family and friends, Not being able to enjoy
dinners out or lunches cuz I'm too drunk or just simply too shaky to do anything.
I'm scared if I don't smarten up right now, that it is quickly going to be too late,
and I am going to die, or possibly even commit suicide, cuz the booze has been literally turning
me into a mental case.
I want to watch my granddaughter grow up, She is only ten, and I'm missing too much
that this life has to offer, by being a full time drunk.
I have to change, and I'm sober today and I'm lovin' it...
:-)
I am glad you posted it......we will all find a part of us in those reasons!! I had to giggle at some of the similarities!!
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Originally Posted by flutter 
print it out.. look at it often.
Infact light went off, I think this is a GREAT idea for everyone, especaially those of us who are so new into recovery. If we made our own list, don't have to share it with anyone. Hell hide it in your underwear drawer.
Read it every morning for modivation!!!
I know I'm going to do that.
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That is quit an impressive list and well thought out.
Personally I am not that deep a thinker and that is probably why I haven't quit until this month.
My reason was simple, my wife said this time you either quit or pack your bage because I can't take your crap anymore.
Since coming here I really want to quit but it took that kick to get me there.
Personally I am not that deep a thinker and that is probably why I haven't quit until this month.
My reason was simple, my wife said this time you either quit or pack your bage because I can't take your crap anymore.
Since coming here I really want to quit but it took that kick to get me there.
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Again a Thanks for the post
and to Flutter for suggested printing it out & looking it over often,
After dinner I sat down & wrote a list of my own. It turned out to be a page & a half, folded it up & decided I would add to it when ever I thought of something new.
I was actually feeling a little tempted tonight because hubby was drinking. But I this really helped!
and to Flutter for suggested printing it out & looking it over often,
After dinner I sat down & wrote a list of my own. It turned out to be a page & a half, folded it up & decided I would add to it when ever I thought of something new.
I was actually feeling a little tempted tonight because hubby was drinking. But I this really helped!
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