Katie09

I think I am at a turning point. I walked two miles to the store to buy a bottle of wine and for some reason I just don't want to drink it.

I feel like crying and just like a big loser. My last day at work was Friday and I didn't have the reaction I expected - relief. I just cried as I drove home. At any rate, the wine isn't going to fix anything. I can't keep escaping as I've done. But I don't know how to deal with these feelings of being unemployed - again.

At any rate, I am posting here, as I know a drink isn't going to fix anything. I've never been in this spot - the spot of having wine to drink and yet not wanting to drink it. I am confused. Can anyone help me please?

CAPTAINZING2000

Pour it out real quick after you did that, come back and post again

rebelTex

Try to come up with 10 reasons not to drink. Give the bottle to a neighbor. You will work again. Do what ever it takes to assert that you are in control, not the wine.

Good luck Katie. I'm pulling for you.

flutter

Pour it out, you'll feel better!

Katie09

Thanks. I can see how it's taking over my life. I guess that is why I am reaching out here. I just don't feel like drinking it. But I am so used to drinking, I don't know what else to do.

KenL

Get rid of that vile poison!!

coffeenut

Pour it out. That act alone will give you so much satisfaction!

Keep reading here, too.

Mark75

Hi Katie -

There are not that many more hours left in today. You don't have to drink today. You should just get rid of the wine... is it worth it?

Mark

Katie09

Yes, and then what do I do? I am very confused here. It's like I don't know what to do. I don't know how to deal with these feelings I have. I know I cannot continue to do what I've been doing. But I don't know any other way to be. I am just tired of being ME. And now I'll have all these days in front of me to be unemployed. And I hate it. Yet I know the answer isn't a drink. But I don't know what the answer is. Thanks.

Katie09

No, it's not worth it. I just wish I knew how to live life.

Still Waters

Is there maybe an AA meeting nearby you can go to for support right now? A friend you can call?

Mariposa18

Sweetie, toss it! And stay here, read and post. You can do this, one hour, one day at a time. A lot of support here, just stick around~

nickishine

I agree!! Pour it out.... eventually you will drink it.... at least i would.

BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!

LosingmyMisery

As far as what are the answers? Start with the wine. You can either dump it or drink it. I would strongly suggest dumping it than start working on your resume and looking for job opportunities. Wine is not going to help with that. Wine does not help sort out our confused emotions either. It only makes them worse. So like I said earlier, start with the wine and dump it.

KenL

Katie, here is what you do.

1. Get rid of the wine.
2. Get rid of the wine.
3. Get rid of the wine.

Stop thinking about all the days ahead. Just deal with this day. When tomorrow comes, you go out and find a new job. Everything's gonna be o.k. We are your support for now. So just get rid of the foul toilet water in a bottle. Listen to us, so many are telling you what to do.

Katie09

No, there isn't. You guys are my support right now. I just have to try to figure out what to do. It's just so odd - this feeling of knowing the jig is up. Wine is not going to fix anything and will just lead to the path of ruin. I know this. It's just been my way of coping for so long, but I am sick of it. I'm drinking water right now and smoking a cigarette just wishing I were tired so I could sleep. I'm ashamed of what I've become. It's like living a lie constantly. I don't have the "consequences" some do, other than having no life and realizing I am NOT normal. One shouldn't have to be under the influence to just have a conversation, yet that's a common occurence every day for me. I know other people know and even if they don't, they will find out. It's no way to live.

Theresa

If you pour it out, you can tell yourself that the walk to the store was your exercise for the day: - )

I cannot keep any liquor in my house because I know that I will drink it.

I cannot count how many times I threw away unopened bottles: it seemed to be what I needed to gradually stop buying them.

You were really strong to post here tonight with this problem.

KenL

It is the effect that alcohol has on you that makes you feel this way. You know....the disease.... that's what it does. If you don't get rid of it and end up drinking it then you won't escape.

CAPTAINZING2000

stay posting on here until, you can't keep your eyes open

We call this 12 stepping.

People will keep you company on here

you can do this

KenL

Zing is right, we're not leaving. So go and get the cork screw, open the bottle, and dump the skanky sewer sludge where it belongs.