So I have the wine, I just don't want to drink it
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You know Katie. I'm really proud of you. You are all right! One night I threw out three full bottles of booze. Wine, whiskey and vodka. I've thrown out so much booze that it could fill a swimming pool. Make this the only time you do it. Don't ever drink again. Keep coming back here to post and read.
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YA DONE GOOD!!!
Sounds like you took your second huge step this evening, you dumped the demon! Your first huge step was getting on here and sharing what was going on.
You're going to be just fine.
Be proud of yourself, it's ok to smile. . . I know I have tears of gratitude running down my face knowing that you had the strength to make it through a bad situation without picking up.
Huge Hugs,
Judy
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Originally Posted by coffeenut 
For one thing, there is NOT one good thing about wine. Not one.
Why aren't you happy with yourself? I"m over the moon for you! Look what you did...you made a choice for sobriety. I have goosebumps thinking about it.
Why aren't you happy with yourself? I"m over the moon for you! Look what you did...you made a choice for sobriety. I have goosebumps thinking about it.
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Katie, I don't know if this helps knowing this,but I have found I go for that bottle wine after a perfectly good day, when I have worked really hard and accomplished quite a bit--what's that all about?
I promise if I buy another bottle of wine, I will post to SR just as you have, before I open it. Thanks for sharing tonight. You have helped me a great deal by showing how we need to reach out for help sometimes-- and I am so happy for you.
I promise if I buy another bottle of wine, I will post to SR just as you have, before I open it. Thanks for sharing tonight. You have helped me a great deal by showing how we need to reach out for help sometimes-- and I am so happy for you.
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Yep, I'm out of sorts a lot. Learning to live with it in a sober way is a challenge, but so much better than being drunk.
Change is good. It's hard, but it's good.
Katie, keep reading tonight. There are a lot of good stickies that I've read numerous times that give me strength.
I am so very proud of you. I don't think I've ever witnessed something like this before, thank you, Katie. You are awesome!
Change is good. It's hard, but it's good.
Katie, keep reading tonight. There are a lot of good stickies that I've read numerous times that give me strength.
I am so very proud of you. I don't think I've ever witnessed something like this before, thank you, Katie. You are awesome!
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Originally Posted by Katie09
I just don't know what to do with myself at this moment.
May I tell a joke to try to cheer you up?
What's invisible and smells like carrots?
Bunny farts.
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Originally Posted by Theresa
Katie, I don't know if this helps knowing this,but I have found I go for that bottle wine after a perfectly good day, when I have worked really hard and accomplished quite a bit--what's that all about?
I promise if I buy another bottle of wine, I will post to SR just as you have, before I open it. Thanks for sharing tonight. You have helped me a great deal by showing how we need to reach out for help sometimes-- and I am so happy for you.
I promise if I buy another bottle of wine, I will post to SR just as you have, before I open it. Thanks for sharing tonight. You have helped me a great deal by showing how we need to reach out for help sometimes-- and I am so happy for you.
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" I cannot keep on doing what I've been doing."
...yep, I think that is the main thought that gets me going for the wine. If we just deal with today and not get overwhelmed by all the tomorrows, maybe we can break away from this negative thought. In fact, I think I hear a warm bath calling me into the more pleasant "now."
Good night for now, Katie, and know how important a step you took this evening.
...yep, I think that is the main thought that gets me going for the wine. If we just deal with today and not get overwhelmed by all the tomorrows, maybe we can break away from this negative thought. In fact, I think I hear a warm bath calling me into the more pleasant "now."
Good night for now, Katie, and know how important a step you took this evening.
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Feeling scared is completely normal. Although it's not comfortable to be feeling like you are right now, just know that every single one of us has been where you are right now.
You have so much to be grateful for right now. You were strong enough to tell on your disease, you came on here, admitted that you went and bought the wine and you asked for help. Those things are huge!
And the fact that you got rid of it shows that you are a very strong lady! It's just going to take time for you to realize it. This disease doesn't want us to be happy, feel confident or be proud of anything. You have taken huge steps!
I am truly proud of you. Sure, the feelings are scary but they do pass . . . that I can promise you. You won't always feel this way.
You have so much to be grateful for right now. You were strong enough to tell on your disease, you came on here, admitted that you went and bought the wine and you asked for help. Those things are huge!
And the fact that you got rid of it shows that you are a very strong lady! It's just going to take time for you to realize it. This disease doesn't want us to be happy, feel confident or be proud of anything. You have taken huge steps!
I am truly proud of you. Sure, the feelings are scary but they do pass . . . that I can promise you. You won't always feel this way.
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Katie,
This has been one heck of a ride tonight. I will not forget it anytime soon. You are truly an amazing person. You have helped me a lot tonight. I gotta go do some work related stuff now so I'm logging off. It sounds like you are in good hands for now. Take care of her ladies, she is precious. Thanks again. Amazing.........just amazing.......
This has been one heck of a ride tonight. I will not forget it anytime soon. You are truly an amazing person. You have helped me a lot tonight. I gotta go do some work related stuff now so I'm logging off. It sounds like you are in good hands for now. Take care of her ladies, she is precious. Thanks again. Amazing.........just amazing.......
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Katie: I have been exactly the same about conversations and wine. I grew up this way: socializing = drinking. I am getting a little better at conversations without drinking. I am trying to make myself partake in more conversations, just hanging around a bit, and keep asking the other person questions. Now dating without drinking is my newest challenge! I will have to let you know how this goes, as I am very new to this. I am focusing on lunch dates right now because I have never felt like drinking at lunch, so it doesn't seem so odd.
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You can use shame to your advantage. Before I quit drinking I could do nothing without a beer in my hand....family gatherings....you name it. And I did it for 30 years....talk about shame.
I am still ashamed of things I did while drunk, and that helps keep me sober. But that shame isn't debilitating, it's more like a reminder to keep my act together.
It's late here, I gotta go. I hope you can check in tomorrow and let us know how you are.
You did well tonight. You did well.
I am still ashamed of things I did while drunk, and that helps keep me sober. But that shame isn't debilitating, it's more like a reminder to keep my act together.
It's late here, I gotta go. I hope you can check in tomorrow and let us know how you are.
You did well tonight. You did well.
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Originally Posted by serenityqueen
Feeling scared is completely normal. Although it's not comfortable to be feeling like you are right now, just know that every single one of us has been where you are right now.
You have so much to be grateful for right now. You were strong enough to tell on your disease, you came on here, admitted that you went and bought the wine and you asked for help. Those things are huge!
And the fact that you got rid of it shows that you are a very strong lady! It's just going to take time for you to realize it. This disease doesn't want us to be happy, feel confident or be proud of anything. You have taken huge steps!
I am truly proud of you. Sure, the feelings are scary but they do pass . . . that I can promise you. You won't always feel this way.
You have so much to be grateful for right now. You were strong enough to tell on your disease, you came on here, admitted that you went and bought the wine and you asked for help. Those things are huge!
And the fact that you got rid of it shows that you are a very strong lady! It's just going to take time for you to realize it. This disease doesn't want us to be happy, feel confident or be proud of anything. You have taken huge steps!
I am truly proud of you. Sure, the feelings are scary but they do pass . . . that I can promise you. You won't always feel this way.
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Originally Posted by Theresa
Katie: I have been exactly the same about conversations and wine. I grew up this way: socializing = drinking. I am getting a little better at conversations without drinking. I am trying to make myself partake in more conversations, just hanging around a bit, and keep asking the other person questions. Now dating without drinking is my newest challenge! I will have to let you know how this goes, as I am very new to this. I am focusing on lunch dates right now because I have never felt like drinking at lunch, so it doesn't seem so odd.
Actually, that is part of what led me to this point - finally talking to this guy and not remembering exactly how the conversation ended. No one deserves that - poor guy, although I am sure it's bothering me wayyy more than him.
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