(Re)Lapse? in my recovery!!
 

So I went and got drunk last night. I am currently on 12mg/day suboxone and the combination was not good. I was throwing up all morning and I feel miserable and depressed right now.

I just felt the need to rat out my disease...


Thanks


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CIM,

The hell we put ourselves through you'd think we'd learn!!! We can eventually though!! This last binge was almost a month of literally drinking around the clock. I've had 4 hrs sleep in the last 5 days and am detoxing now --- extremely sick of body, mind and spirit.

I understand your depression!!! Keep getting those feelings out because I (we) understand and relate totally! Hang in there! What's your MO today with using or not using???

Hugs, Nicki :ghug3

I havent used today. yesterday I drank and smoked. So today is day 1 on that subject, but as far as the opiates, which are my drug of choice for the past 4 years Ive been 77 days recovering with 2 relapses (one at 30 days and one at 50 :mad:). But today is a new day....and today I havnt used. So ill keep working on today until tomorrow comes.

thanks alot :You_Rock_

Congratulations on day one :)

Just remember relapse isn't always a bad thing. You can learn from them. I learned that drinking didn't help my emotional health but my meds do. So I'm sticking with the meds.

Keep it up and we can do this together! Day 2 for me! Let's try not to give in or give up!

Hugs! Nicki:praying

I'm glad to see you back!

Stay with it! Day 2 completed here. Now I've got to go do something to keep busy.

thank you guys soo much. All the positive feedback and enouragement is great. The only thing I have such a hard time dealing with is the fact that ive been in recovery for 77 days and here I am at first base again.

with that aside I feel so great knowing im not alone and that I can go somewhere for help even when I cant get to a meeting right that second.

:ghug

Wb!!! :)

Day 1 is better than Day 0

Now you know what not to do....:)

Don't feel too bad. You came back to SR for help. That is exactly what we are all here for. Please stay clean today, O.K.? Don't forget about all of us here at SR.

Welcome back! Glad you're starting again. Never give up! YOu can do this, take it one day at a time.

:ghug3

CIM, hang in there, you can do this. We are here for you!

Dear, I threw 4 years out the window when I relapsed. That was humiliation beyond description. You just keep hanging in there, and shave it down to 5 minutes at a time if you need to! :ghug :ghug

hey climbin..welcome back...don't focus on the relapse...put your focus and energy now into staying sober..even if it's a minute at a time! if you can't get to a meeting...reach out here...call a friend...whatever you need to do...but most of all don't dwell on what was...focus on what is!!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
big hugs!
Lisa :)

Just keep trying.
Glad you are giving it another go.

hi im climbininmaine and I am a addict and an alcoholic...


sooooo this morning started off great....its snowing like a ******* but I went to an 8:30 meeting and then a 10 am meeting... I feel so safe at my meetings. It just sucks when I leave I get back in my own head and start feeling anxious and paranoid and insecure......I know it is not easy but come on now when is this madness going to end....

I still find myself talking to slippery people and going to slippery places.:a108:

I dont know where im going with this but I just need to keep myself in check and right now this is how im doing it....

so for today im not gonna drink....and im not gonna drug


thanks