Rowan

coffeenut

Congrats on almost 2 years! Good thread, too. I think we all need to be aware that this can happen....so while I"m sorry it's happening to you, you are letting a lot of people know to be careful, it can happen.

Hope you are feeling Great!

Thank you!

tanyapmc

That's funny!

parentrecovers

that is pretty funny!

Astro

I've heard it called anniversary anxiety Tanya, that sure describes the way I feel before a recovery birthday. For me I think it's because I contemplate a little more than usual the progress I've made in recovery. In typical alcoholic fashion, I'm harder on myself than I should be, I'm critical of where I'm at. This too shall pass. Usually by the time I pick up my chip I'm feeling pretty good again and it's not about me anymore, I get back to helping another alcoholic and taking the focus off myself.

As for the highs and lows, I've heard the comparison of recovery being like a heart monitor. Flatline would be very grim, extreme spikes would mean too much of something, while those gentle blips mean that life is rolling along smoothly.

You've made great progress Tanya, give yourself a pat on the back and be proud of the example you've set for others.

IO Storm

Hey Tan...

I sure can relate to that..addicted to Valium..then Xanax..then alcohol and weed,

and diet pills. It reminds me of a term they used in the 60's..turn on and drop out.

I didn't use LSD but ..it was bad enough!

Everyone said great stuff..

Horselover said what I would have shared with you, Tan.

And..how it affected us. My bottom almost killed me. (shudder)

All I have to do is remember the last day. And today is not so bad..the using and drinking dream

is not so great! lol

Yes..I get "antsy" on anniversaries..but it is not limited to those. There are other triggers.

The last day. What happened..and how it is today. It always helps.

Love you Tan.

And congrats on your clean and sober time!

nogard

Yep I get weird around then too, I do more meetings and stay close to friends

lisa t

great topic tan....my 2 year is coming up as well and i've been feeling..hmmm..just generally out of sorts...my sponsor said the same thing i've heard here...sometimes around anniversaries there is a depression or anxiety that we don't normally have...good time to reach out to other alkies and definitely a great time for a gratitude list...i've been doing one every day in my head..i also think back to my last drunk, the ride in the ambulance, the surgery, etc...and i know i definitely don't want to go back there!!
Congrats on 2 yrs!! Awesome!
Lisa

tanyapmc

Thanks everyone!

I did go to the psych dr yesterday. I am not starting on any anti-depressants at this time

I am going to take Omega 3 fish oil. It is believed to have anti depressant qualities. (who knew??)

And he game me and RX for a folic acid that helps to open the receptors in the brain that the dopamine goes into.

I will keep you updated.

Tomorrow is my big day! :bounce: ONLY by God's grace........

Tommyh

Happy 2nd b-day Tanya



yes,Ii used to get weird near the b-days
now I`m just weird all the time.
:-)
it is just where you are supossed to be and it will pass,mine did