New To The Board :) Just relapsed :(
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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New To The Board :) Just relapsed :(
:prayingI just thought I would say hi.
I have been in and out of the rooms now for close to 16 years, I am 33 Mother of two.. And having a hard time. I have hit my bottoms to many times to count. I relapsed after six months (seems to be my time frame) and feel that was it for me. It was my first black out. My primary choice of any substance was drugs, I always thought I could moderate my drinking although I only go to A.A. and was abstinent for that time period. Then I had my first black out. That was all I needed. I have had problems with the law, (still on probation) loss of a Husband .. Which isnt neccessary a bad thing. God has brought me many blessings and I have a strong sponsor and I thought I had a strong program. And I realize relapse just doesnt happen. However Looking back on the whole situation I am finding that Step Two and Three have been lost somewhere to me. And I am working on that. Anyways just thought I would share a little bit about myself. I just discovered this site a few days ago and its great.
Thanks for letting me share
I have been in and out of the rooms now for close to 16 years, I am 33 Mother of two.. And having a hard time. I have hit my bottoms to many times to count. I relapsed after six months (seems to be my time frame) and feel that was it for me. It was my first black out. My primary choice of any substance was drugs, I always thought I could moderate my drinking although I only go to A.A. and was abstinent for that time period. Then I had my first black out. That was all I needed. I have had problems with the law, (still on probation) loss of a Husband .. Which isnt neccessary a bad thing. God has brought me many blessings and I have a strong sponsor and I thought I had a strong program. And I realize relapse just doesnt happen. However Looking back on the whole situation I am finding that Step Two and Three have been lost somewhere to me. And I am working on that. Anyways just thought I would share a little bit about myself. I just discovered this site a few days ago and its great.
Thanks for letting me share
Resident
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Toronto, Ontario
Posts: 4,150
I am new to the site too and new to recovery. I find coming here and reading and posting really helps. Everyone here genuinely cares for each other even though we are total strangers. Come often and you will feel part of the group. It is really hard to explain the feeling I get just by coming here.
Liverpool 19
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Dublin Ireland
Posts: 44
Hi this is my first post i relapsed on jan 1 after 11 months and i stopped on jan 11 at 21.00.What has really freaked me is that the whole 11 day binge is nearly a black out with very sparse memory needless to say i am going through hell now total fog also i have this severe buzzing in my left ear that is so loud it sounds like feed back from an amp have not slept for over two days save the first few hours when i stopped any advice thank you very much
peaceful seabird
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: floating
Posts: 4,822
Welcome to the SR family karma!
Welcome to you redpat!
Lots of support and information here.
Redpat, you might want to introduce yourself and start a new thread so you don't get lost in this one.
Glad you both are here!:ghug
Welcome to you redpat!
Lots of support and information here.
Redpat, you might want to introduce yourself and start a new thread so you don't get lost in this one.
Glad you both are here!:ghug
Liverpool 19
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Dublin Ireland
Posts: 44
Originally Posted by Pelican 
Welcome to the SR family karma!
Welcome to you redpat!
Lots of support and information here.
Redpat, you might want to introduce yourself and start a new thread so you don't get lost in this one.
Glad you both are here!:ghug
Welcome to you redpat!
Lots of support and information here.
Redpat, you might want to introduce yourself and start a new thread so you don't get lost in this one.
Glad you both are here!:ghug
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: uk
Posts: 2,548
hi karma and welcome....Its great that you have a sponsor and you can see some weakness in 2 and 3.....
I drove my sponsor mad with 2 and 3...but thankfully he has a deep love for the fellowship and the steps..and 29 years sober..
Try not to feel to despondent......the relaspe is history but tommorow isnt.
love to you and keep sharing...............trucker
I drove my sponsor mad with 2 and 3...but thankfully he has a deep love for the fellowship and the steps..and 29 years sober..
Try not to feel to despondent......the relaspe is history but tommorow isnt.
love to you and keep sharing...............trucker
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