Last Call

Around the holidays I relapsed for about 6 weeks, after nearly 8 months of sobriety. Without going on and on about all the crap in my chaotic life, suffice it to say I let old coping mechanisms and thinking back in. It started with smoking here and there, and then drinking here and there. And quickly escalated to where I am forced again to take action. This was not an experiment that needed repeating.

There is no pleasure in drinking or smoking. Nothing beneficial to be gained. Even as I did it I knew it was stupid, there was no illusion that it would be different.

Anyway I am here, sober and smoke free, nearly through day 3.

I hope everyone is having a good and sober day.

LC

Rouxballs

I was having a really bad day yesterday---I thought for a split second to drink.
Like I said a split second.
I Quit drinking--it has been 44 days.
I will not relaps.
We all have bad days and run into problems--drinking is not a cure all.
JUST DONT DO IT!

weekendbinger

So glad you are back!!! You can do it this time. Remind yourself of the positive changes in your life from that 8 months of sobriety. Stay strong and have a great night!!!

prettypoison

I'm with you on day 3 also. I think about drinking obssessively right now. Love/hate back and forth, can't shake the vicious cycle in my head yet. I know I have to keep coming here and being reminded why picking up that first drink will bring
me
down

Hang in there!

:ghug3

Anna

Hi LC,

It's good that you are back on track!

parentrecovers

nice to see ya posting again, last call.

hugs, k

lovinmenow

Pretty Poison hang in there and try to stay busy and keep your mind off it.

Horselover

Welcome back LC!! Its good to see you on the boards again.

flutter

Welcome back! A fresh start for you