seasalt

I am shocked to be here. But glad you are all here. I have read so many stories here and some that are very similar to my own. I am 2 1/2 years addicted to lortab 10 mg, 3-4 times per day. I have quit twice before, was done with them for about a month, and then found justification to get right back on them due to back/neck pain from a car accident. You see the reason I am so shocked is that I have never been addicted to any drug. I have always been anti-drug. Funny how you can end up somewhere you never imagined. What I would like to know is when the energy levels come back? I went a month without using and still was not myself which contributed to my relapse. I am done with this. I am done revolving my life around how to get pills, when I will run out, being humiliated at the doctors office. Etc. Etc. Etc.

least

How long have you been off of them this time? I have no experience with pills so have no advice other than to say duplicate this post in Substance Abusers forum, as they will likely know more about what you're going thru. Does your doctor know you have addiction issues? Have you told them you want to quit? Good luck to you! Glad you're back!:ghug3

James13

Welcome, seasalt.

While pills have not been my DOC, I can certainly see many of the same characteristics in all addictions to all drugs, or behaviors. It's really all tied together, really. I have found that it is not a problem with drugs, it is a problem with me: addict or non-addict. Mental escape has just been my symptom.

Addiction isn't a choice, but using is.

You will find alot of insight and support here.

parentrecovers

nice to meet you, seasalt! keep posting! k

Anna

Hi Seasalt,

I understand how you feel. I was shocked to find myself addicted to alcohol, baffled by how quickly it happened and how ridiculously powerless I was.

Please know that there is hope. Maybe a month wasn't enough time for you to start feeling better, but you will feel better.

ReedyJ77

I try to tell myself that My mind and my will-power are the strongest thing on the planet. Nothing can break it, unless you let it. You are the most powerful thing in your life. If you dont want to, DON'T. Just remember to stay busy doing something and your cravings will eventually turn to something else. Good Luck! Hope to hear about your progress!

BKP

Welcome my friend :ghug3

Aysha

I know I never in a million years thought I would turn into an addict. And definately not to the degrree I did.
I dont know much about pills. But I just wanted to welcome you. Keep posting.

BKP

^^^ do you ever go to northern lights to see music>? I saw Blues Travler a long time ago (during a big drinking part of my life) and i miss that place, can't wait to see shows sober this year-summer, plan on seeing phish in PA this summer, AA style.

Kellye C

Welcome. Definitely check out the substance abuse forum. Hopefully you will get some of the information you seek but in the meantime just know we are glad to have you here and happy to offer support.

Hugs,
Kellye

seasalt

Thanks to you all, just for listening. I have cravings, they are few though. I just don't want to feel depressed anymore. I hate that part of all of this. I am usually highly productive, now my pace has slowed, so I am trying to push myself back into normality (or what I think normal is). I was always the girl at the party that didn't drink, didn't do drugs, and people could never understand how I enjoyed myself. That is normal for me. I will be there again. I am sure of it. I am having ups and downs today, but I will push myself out of this bleak, grayness and back into that sunny, little patch of happiness. I will get there. Thank you for your help.