First Real Test
JTinStLouis
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: St Louis, MO
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First Real Test
Hello All,
I am home this evening somewhere around day 70 something. I am home with our little girl as mama is out of town on a trip for work. I was a little nervous about tonight as this is the first time I have been left alone for any length of time since I have been sober. I had wondered if I would try to get a way with something as I am here on my own for the most part. I have to say it is OK I am laying down as the baby sleeps next to me. I must say the strongest part is what I have learned through AA to be honest with yourself, by doing that (all of the time) I would always know if I were to slip and have a relapse or try to hide any usage. So for that I am thankful and looking for a peaceful and well rested evening, well as long as the little one does too.
Just throwing that out here,
LOVE
JT
I am home this evening somewhere around day 70 something. I am home with our little girl as mama is out of town on a trip for work. I was a little nervous about tonight as this is the first time I have been left alone for any length of time since I have been sober. I had wondered if I would try to get a way with something as I am here on my own for the most part. I have to say it is OK I am laying down as the baby sleeps next to me. I must say the strongest part is what I have learned through AA to be honest with yourself, by doing that (all of the time) I would always know if I were to slip and have a relapse or try to hide any usage. So for that I am thankful and looking for a peaceful and well rested evening, well as long as the little one does too.
Just throwing that out here,
LOVE
JT
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Congrats on 70 something days.
It is a little scary when we are left on our own.
I know it is for me.
But you have the perfect reason and company sleeping right next to you.
great job. Keep it up.
It is a little scary when we are left on our own.
I know it is for me.
But you have the perfect reason and company sleeping right next to you.
great job. Keep it up.
6/20/08
Join Date: Sep 2008
Posts: 4,467
Hey, JT. Your first time alone....when no one will know.....except, You!
Your little one is so very lucky to have a Sober you. That is a gift you are giving them, that I so wish I could have given my own children.
You are doing Great!
Your little one is so very lucky to have a Sober you. That is a gift you are giving them, that I so wish I could have given my own children.
You are doing Great!
JTinStLouis
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: St Louis, MO
Posts: 115
thank you coffeenut,
yes that is the clincher is that I will know and that is not what I want to do or who I choose to be these days. I have found this to be hard on me, I can only imagine how hard this is on my wife too, this is her first time since I have been sober leaving her in my soul care for 3 days and nights. I have to respect that as well as that is not an easy thing for anyone to do.
JT
yes that is the clincher is that I will know and that is not what I want to do or who I choose to be these days. I have found this to be hard on me, I can only imagine how hard this is on my wife too, this is her first time since I have been sober leaving her in my soul care for 3 days and nights. I have to respect that as well as that is not an easy thing for anyone to do.
JT
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Originally Posted by j0hn0than1964 
Hello All,
I am home this evening somewhere around day 70 something. I am home with our little girl as mama is out of town on a trip for work. I was a little nervous about tonight as this is the first time I have been left alone for any length of time since I have been sober. I had wondered if I would try to get a way with something as I am here on my own for the most part. I have to say it is OK I am laying down as the baby sleeps next to me. I must say the strongest part is what I have learned through AA to be honest with yourself, by doing that (all of the time) I would always know if I were to slip and have a relapse or try to hide any usage. So for that I am thankful and looking for a peaceful and well rested evening, well as long as the little one does too.
Just throwing that out here,
LOVE
JT
I am home this evening somewhere around day 70 something. I am home with our little girl as mama is out of town on a trip for work. I was a little nervous about tonight as this is the first time I have been left alone for any length of time since I have been sober. I had wondered if I would try to get a way with something as I am here on my own for the most part. I have to say it is OK I am laying down as the baby sleeps next to me. I must say the strongest part is what I have learned through AA to be honest with yourself, by doing that (all of the time) I would always know if I were to slip and have a relapse or try to hide any usage. So for that I am thankful and looking for a peaceful and well rested evening, well as long as the little one does too.
Just throwing that out here,
LOVE
JT
2nd...You are not "really" alone, we are here for you. So, keep coming in here and spend time with us...We're in this together.
Stay strong <----(I hope I hear myself saying this, don't want to eat my own medicine) and Bless your heart.
:ghug2
XOXO
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ahhhhhh the whispering alcoholic head..
Always seems to know when your vunerable or feel vunerable...little devil..
Its ok.........and imo perfectly usual..to feel like this sometimes.
With me it weakens with time but still on the odd occasion can chat absolute fantasy to me..
OOOOOOOOOO wouldnt it be nice to have one glass of wine with dinner...
Ha ha ha ha......ive never had ONE of anything alcoholic....total b.s.
As long as you dont listen to it and act on it.....it ok and normal.....imo.
And more importantly sharing it with other alcoholics.......is brillant and heathly....good for you my friend.................trucker
Always seems to know when your vunerable or feel vunerable...little devil..
Its ok.........and imo perfectly usual..to feel like this sometimes.
With me it weakens with time but still on the odd occasion can chat absolute fantasy to me..
OOOOOOOOOO wouldnt it be nice to have one glass of wine with dinner...
Ha ha ha ha......ive never had ONE of anything alcoholic....total b.s.
As long as you dont listen to it and act on it.....it ok and normal.....imo.
And more importantly sharing it with other alcoholics.......is brillant and heathly....good for you my friend.................trucker
JTinStLouis
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: St Louis, MO
Posts: 115
Morning All,
Yes the night was fine actually quite fine, I fell asleep like a baby myself and we both slept through the night to wake up happy and healthy of course in mind and spirit. Thank you all
JT
Yes the night was fine actually quite fine, I fell asleep like a baby myself and we both slept through the night to wake up happy and healthy of course in mind and spirit. Thank you all
JT
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I can't get the time back from my kids. I do however, relish in the the time spent with my grand kids.
Nothing on Earth has the calming effect on me then to hear my grand kids say I love you
Being sober, this will be a good memory for you to keep !!
Nothing on Earth has the calming effect on me then to hear my grand kids say I love you
Being sober, this will be a good memory for you to keep !!
peaceful seabird
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Well done, friend!
I will share a quote from Booker T Washington:
" Few things help an individual more than to place responsibility upon him,
and to let him know that you trust him."
(special thanks to SR member Fall for posting this under Co-dependents Anon)
I will share a quote from Booker T Washington:
" Few things help an individual more than to place responsibility upon him,
and to let him know that you trust him."
(special thanks to SR member Fall for posting this under Co-dependents Anon)
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Originally Posted by j0hn0than1964
Morning All,
Yes the night was fine actually quite fine, I fell asleep like a baby myself and we both slept through the night to wake up happy and healthy of course in mind and spirit. Thank you all
JT
Yes the night was fine actually quite fine, I fell asleep like a baby myself and we both slept through the night to wake up happy and healthy of course in mind and spirit. Thank you all
JT
Made me smile just before work...
I see my precious little amelya soon (granddaughter)....cant wait for the mayhem...lol.....................trucker
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