wrvalleygirl

It seems like it's always one crisis after another with my kids... and my first thought it always "I need a drink".... it's how I am used to dealing...

My son, who has been the healthy one, had his check-up today and his Doctor was very concerned about his lack of weight gain and ordered a battery of tests and referred us to a specialist... who ironically my daughter has to see tomorrow anyway because of HER issues... (she had a stroke before she was born) and so I got my son in for tomorrow as well, which is a miracle... but the doctor knows what we have been through....

I just hate that my kids suffer sometimes... and I KNOW that if I drink, they will suffer more... so I refuse to give in so that I can be the BEST MOM I can be....

I have a week again.. and that is a start. I know I can do this...

Thanks for listening!!!!

inoishudbdead

Good for you! With their medical problems there isn't really a whole lot you can do about it which must be very hard since you wish you could, but by not drinking you are definitely helping them a whole lot more than you think because i remember when i lived at home my dad and mom would drink in secret and i always hated it. It just created more problems for all of us.

And I know you can do it too!

TryingSoHard

Yay! Congratulations on a sober week! That's awesome. And you were spot on when you said and I KNOW that if I drink, they will suffer more. I know that it is hell on earth to have to sit back and watch your children suffer, but they need you and they need you SOBER.

You're right - you CAN do this!! Keep up the good work!

Latte

I am so proud of you! Parenting in recovery can be so difficult. Some mornings I just want to lose my mind but today I can't imagine doing it stoned or while drinking. I wanted to run away for so long but today working a program, parenting has slowly become a real joy and my girls really suprise me every day.

It gets better, the problems don't seem so big to me anymore. It didn't happen overnight but with each problem I dealt with sober my confidence got so much better.

You can do this!

least

Congrats on your first week sober! It does get better, tho there are some hard times ahead - the good times are worth the effort!

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rungirl951

yea 4 you & one week . that's huge! i recently went through my own crisis, i felt like i was being tested. i started looking for the good things that were hiding in all the mess. for you i see you are lucky to see a doctor who knows you, my husband just came home from 6 days in the hospital (severe alcohol withdrawls) 4 days in i.c.u. and i never saw the same doctor twice. also you have one week. i quit drinking when i noticed everytime my son asked me to do something with him, work in the garden, play ball, play cards anything at all my response was ALWAYS let me grab a beer or let me run to the store for a beer first. i drew my strength from my son to quit drinking i too wanted to be the best mom i could. when i reached 1 week the last thing i wanted to do was have to start counting the days over again with 1 by taking a drink. it's been 5 years and my son is my biggest fan & he saw how hard it was for me to quit. whatever you do don't give up . good luck to you.