Hello BB, welcome to SR. Ever thought about checking out an AA meeting?
Going to meetings helped me get through days 1-3, and every day after that. The program continues to keep me sober and it's given me an amazing life.
Hope you find something that works for you, and that you put together a plan for your recovery.
"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming---*WOW-What a ride*!"