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I have been gratefully sober for almost 5 months, married 20+ yrs to an alcoholic who wants his drinking life rather than me. I am really trying to find some serenety and joy in my life. I battle with depression, try to stay positive in my daily life but am still searching for true happiness within. I truly try to live AA, attending at least one mtg a day, reading AA literature, working on my 4th step but feeling like there is something missing within me.
Spent NY eve alone as I didn't feel comfortable going to a drinking function with my husband.
Boy am I ever on the pitty pot!!
I am looking for something like a spiritual treatment center to enter for a week or two that will focus on sobriety as well as finding happiness within.

Jersey Nonny

Hi, and welcome to Sober Recovery. On the East Coast, we have spiritual retreats in conjunction with The Matt Talbot Retreat Movement. I attended one at the Jersey Shore for over twenty years...three days, twice a year, May and November. It seemed to be just what I needed at the end of the long winter, and just before the hectic holiday season. I don't know if they've found their way to your neck of the woods; but, perhaps you can email them for information. There must be spiritual retreats in your area. Since they aren't AA affiliated or sponsored, you may have to depend on "word of mouth" through oldtimers at your local meetings. Good Luck finding something.

Matt Talbot Retreat Movement, Inc.

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

I understand the emptiness within, that you are talking about.

I had completely lost myself before and during my drinking days.

For me, the book "The Seat of Your Soul" by Gary Zukav really helped me. It showed me that I needed to find my soul's purpose in this life, and then I would find peace. It's a gentle and humble book, written by a man who was an addict and had to find a purpose in his life.

I hope you keep reading and posting.

All About Love

where abouts are you located?

Taking5

Google "AA roundup" or "AA retreat". I am going to a 4 day retreat in FL in March.

James13

I HIGHLY suggest reading The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. A lot of people recommended this to me before I got it, and I am now reading it again.




It's an easy read, but very introspective and is a perfect guide to change.