shaun00

hi Hevyn...if only we could take the meeting with us and maybe a sponsor too...
Sometimes for me it would feel like a bottle would chase me down and pour itself down my throat.......not true of course but scary never the less.

I felt extremely vunerable and sometimes just wanted to run.

But looking back at those first partys or family get togethers MOST of the time it wasnt anywhere near as bad or uncomfortable as i thought it would be.

You see....for me....my alcoholism wants me to think its not gonna be managable.....it wants me to think....im not having fun or just one drink and that will sort me.......TOTAL AND UTTER FICTION.

Working through these situations that sometimes we have to do, can only make us grow and develop new ways of coping and having a good time.

I was told...."take plenty of your favourite soft drink".......try and mix with the ones that are drinking the least or better still not drinking at all.

and if it gets to much............leave.

Alot easier to explain that than why you got drunk all over again.


softly softly......im sure your be fine..........god be with you..trucker

Hope

I'm with you in spirit!

I know that you will come through this to the other side and be proud. Lots of hugs, prayers, and good thoughts coming out to you.

Pinkcuda

I'll be there!

espresso

Stay strong
You can do this
Keep things in the present moment.
Think positively
Love n Hugs oxox

IO Storm

What is your defense against the first first drink, Hevyn?

It is that you have changed.

Conceptions, perceptions, motives..you've learned some things.

That you can't pick up..and lay it down. Simple!

But I will go with you..God will. But everywhere you go..there you are.

I have faith in you..you have grown.

You know you can't drink...so don't. The pressure is now officially off.

Relax. Try to enjoy time with the family.

And yes..maybe it is time sis in law needs a little education hun.

Much love, my friend.

Be safe.

Jules62

You know I'm with you in every step, honey.

As you have been with me in these past two months.You are not alone.Ever,

Much love,

Jules (and Merlin xox)

All About Love

im with you girl!
i be here on n off for the next 48hours
you'll be fine hun, my sponsor tells me to face my fears an walk through m with my head held high, and as i walk through my own fear surrounding xmas im stomping all over that addictive voice in my head!!!!!!!!
the first pik up gives it the power that YOU have right now in sobriety, thats what i tell myself daily.

love you hun an hope yr chrissy path proves an empowering one!!!

Rusty Zipper

hev, just pin good ol'e Rule 62 to your eyelids!

happy holidays hun!

you will be ok...

stone

"no one regrets not drinking"

I like what IO said, if you know you can't and you won't the pressure comes off....don't give the thoughts to drink head space.

coffeenut

Hevyn, hoping you are doing well!

I've kept this thread in my mind a LOT over the last few days. Will keep it in mind for the next few. So far, I do not regret NOT drinking.

Can't wait to hear how you are doing.

mikel60

Hey Hevyn,
You are not alone. Peace.
Mike

Hevyn

I read each & every word last night through tears & sobs. I read everything again today and it meant even more. I've been panicky because exactly one year ago I had resolved not to drink, and at the last minute I surrendered. The hell I went through can't be repeated, that's a fact. Yet in spite of everything, yesterday morning the little voice started, "It's Christmas, you're ok now, you'd never go back to what you were!" I was terrified because I wasn't expecting those thoughts to come back under any circumstances.

I will go out into this night accompanied by my SR army of guardian angels. I WILL print this out and take it with me. I won't cave at the last moment. I have all of you believing in me and I can't fail you. My heartfelt gratitude.

IO Storm

And who knows Hevyn..who knows...you just may carry the message to another..

who might need it in the future.

Prayers going with you J.



And don't forget to have fun!

scaredykat

Hevyn - I PM you back.
You definitely are not alone. Look at all these people that care about you. I'll definitely think about you, and you can think about me this Christmas. We're both so close to the 1 year mark.

Love Ya,
Barb

Hope

I'm thinking of you!

TryingSoHard

I feel ya. I've already gotten whispers from that voice. I'm terrified of how loud it will scream at me later on.

I hope you're doing well tonight, and I hope you have a truly wonderful day tomorrow.

Love,
TSH

Hevyn

Well, I took the printout with me, & though I didn't get it out and read it, I kept touching it in my purse. I felt power coming from it. I remembered everything that was said. I was not alone. When they came up to me with my favorite drink (no drumroll) I told them, "I don't drink anymore" - when I got a surprised look, I added, "I felt I was becoming too dependent on it." No one gasped in astonishment, no one questioned me or insisted I have just one - it was so much easier than I thought. Rule 62 indeed, Rusty.

Thank you is such a lame thing to say. How can I tell you how much I appreciate you for helping save me from the little voice? You did it. (Now, on to the rest of today and New Year's.....)

gravity

I just knew that you would do it!

Believe in yourself! You're a new person!

You just made my Christmas even better! Thank you.

Jomey

JOANIE! WAY TO GO!!!! ONE OF MY CHRISTMAS PRAYERS ANSWERED!!! THANKS FOR LETTING US KNOW!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND PROUD OF YOU!!!! Love ya, Jomey

gypsytears

I missed this the other day when you 1st posted. I am so proud of you Hevyn . I think printing out the thread was a great idea... as well as telling them you don't drink anymore!