Jamzky

Irritable, depressed and anxious now and no drink to improve it. I am remaining sober no matter how bad it gets. There are then moments like this morning when relief came over me again. I am so relieved to be sober! Not stressed about money and drink, work and drink, family and drink, relationships and drink. I am not feeling like a loser when buying vodka, I am not hiding drink in my room, I am not trying to mask the smell on my breath, I am not trying to work out exactly how much to take to feel normal again, I am not dying with anxiety, I am not judging myself so cruelly, I am not feeling my life drifting away, I am not feeling the emptiness inside that drink can leave you with.

It is a relief and in time the feeling will come again and grow.

I am grateful for that too.

J

Anna

Oh yes, I felt a huge sense of relief when I finally decided to stop trying manage my drinking, and to just stop. Gradually the obsession lifted and my mind was able to fill with so many wonderful things.

I'm glad you're doing well.

flutter

So I can barely see the screen cuz of the tears in my eyes, I could have written every word of this.. wow. Might need to come back to this with a few more days under my belt, but boy do I know that relief, even just 4 days in right now. Thank you so much for posting this.. I was a vodka hider too.

Pam08

Thanks for that post. I can so connect with it . I think it is good to know those feelings of guilt, shame, insanity so we can realise how sobriety is a miracle in our lives. Thank you for sharing, I needed to remember.

Jamzky

I find this a great support too flutter and pam, knowing you understand. We'll keep in touch here.

CarolD

Thanks for sharing your progress....
I've found it gets easier and better
the longer you go.

TryingSoHard

Like flutter, I could have written your post. My most recent wave of relief came last night. It's amazing how unexpected it can be (and usually just in the nick of time!). I too have spent today being grateful... for the relief, for sobriety, for lots of things.

Thank you for your post, and for reminding me I am not alone.

Aysha

Its almost like work doing all that..Isnt it?

I would say relief is a good word for that.
Good for you. Keep it up.

ExNavyInHouston

I relate so much to those two comments. Those thoughts are driving me to succeed right now. I hope the same for you.