Day 12
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: CA
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Day 12
On another note... I want to drink.
I really want to go out and party.
This girl Lauren that is Jacks' (my boss) niece is my age wants me to be her "partner in crime" this weekend. I am nervous. I am scared that I won't be able to control myself. I keep hearing this voice in the back on my head saying... "OK you can totally handle only having a few drinks." I know this isn't true, or that it might be true... but it would only be a matter of time until I black out once again.
I would love to party... Go out and just have a GREAT time... and remember EVERYTHING.
I want to be able to have a few drinks and get a bit tipsy and just leave it at that... but the fact is: THIS IS NOT A REALITY FOR ME RIGHT NOW.
Ahhhhh I am ANNOYED.
BOOOOO
it has only been 12 days and already I feel weak.
I really want to go out and party.
This girl Lauren that is Jacks' (my boss) niece is my age wants me to be her "partner in crime" this weekend. I am nervous. I am scared that I won't be able to control myself. I keep hearing this voice in the back on my head saying... "OK you can totally handle only having a few drinks." I know this isn't true, or that it might be true... but it would only be a matter of time until I black out once again.
I would love to party... Go out and just have a GREAT time... and remember EVERYTHING.
I want to be able to have a few drinks and get a bit tipsy and just leave it at that... but the fact is: THIS IS NOT A REALITY FOR ME RIGHT NOW.
Ahhhhh I am ANNOYED.
BOOOOO
it has only been 12 days and already I feel weak.
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Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: CA
Posts: 114
every1surf---hey i like your name a lot
anyways im pretty new to this too and have already turned down a few weekend invitations to go out because I might want to think i can go and only have a beer or two, or not drink at all, but the reality is i can't handle a situation like that right now if I really dont want to drink. Just way to early, so were gonna have to sack up and put ourselves out of harms way at least for awhile-but its going to be worth it in the long run for us. Sucks right now though, ha.
side note
Nice Phal on passing at the bar, good stuff bro. I dont know if i could turn away drinks with friends at bar yet-actually i know i couldnt if other people were drinking-id probably turn kind of grumpy. But I did go down to my normal liquor stop tonight to get some milk,water,etc. and new the temptation of booze would be there but i kind of wanted to test myself (im just like that i like to be testy, ha) and i was feeling confident. I went in and was looking around at all the wine, beer, and hard a and just took a few deep breaths knowing how easy it would be for me just to grab a little somethin somethin-but i kind of just didnt think about it got my stuff went up, paid, cruised out. As i drove away I flicked off the place and said F u alkie, haha. felt good.
anyways im pretty new to this too and have already turned down a few weekend invitations to go out because I might want to think i can go and only have a beer or two, or not drink at all, but the reality is i can't handle a situation like that right now if I really dont want to drink. Just way to early, so were gonna have to sack up and put ourselves out of harms way at least for awhile-but its going to be worth it in the long run for us. Sucks right now though, ha.
side note
Nice Phal on passing at the bar, good stuff bro. I dont know if i could turn away drinks with friends at bar yet-actually i know i couldnt if other people were drinking-id probably turn kind of grumpy. But I did go down to my normal liquor stop tonight to get some milk,water,etc. and new the temptation of booze would be there but i kind of wanted to test myself (im just like that i like to be testy, ha) and i was feeling confident. I went in and was looking around at all the wine, beer, and hard a and just took a few deep breaths knowing how easy it would be for me just to grab a little somethin somethin-but i kind of just didnt think about it got my stuff went up, paid, cruised out. As i drove away I flicked off the place and said F u alkie, haha. felt good.
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In early sobriety....I too missed the party scene
Sooo.I found an AA group of mostly singles.
We did all sorts of activities outside the meetingns.
We shared the same new lifestyles and goals.
We stayed sober and we had a blast!
Hope you find a way to enjoy a sober life
Recovery Really Rocks!
Sooo.I found an AA group of mostly singles.
We did all sorts of activities outside the meetingns.
We shared the same new lifestyles and goals.
We stayed sober and we had a blast!
Hope you find a way to enjoy a sober life
Recovery Really Rocks!
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