Stressed the *@#! Out!!
 

I am really trying not to lose my cool right now.

(((((((Trish)))))))))))) whats up, how about talk about it

I know I remind you of your aunt, but I'd like to help, too. What's up, Trish?

I'm sorry you're feeling stressed. We're here for you.

Dont want to bore anyone with the same song and dance.
Just the same crap thats always grinding my nerves. And the holidays like everyone else I am sure isnt helping.

Not to mention 4 hyper kids actin crazy and not listening. Grams is of the hook from them too. All I hear is yelling..crying..fighting..stomping.

Boss lady keeps trying to push us out the freakin door everyday. We arent even getting hours as it is. Now she is trying to cut us short of what we are entitled to.

No jobs out there.

Just the same thing...Its starting to get to me now. The past week...I am breakin down mentally.

I am really trying to hold it together here.

I cant go off the deep end now.

I am just whining..I know..But I need to let it out.

Just tired of struggling all the time.

(((Trish)))

I'm sorry, sweetie. I'm clinging to SR, myself, today, to keep from losing it. Maybe hide from the kids, curl up with Bobbles, and hang out here for a while?

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

hey Trish, don't forget its just today we need to deal with, make some plans about the future, stop staring at the past and be in the moment and keep talking and asking for help and teh support of other addicts.

Kevin

I'm glad you came here, Trish. Venting here is healthy. Your house sounds crazy-loud right now, and that would make me mental. When do they go home??

I'm sorry your hours are being cut at work - that sucks.

But - you have us, you're clean, you have a roof, family, little cousins who normally aren't driving you batsh*t, a vehicle, food in your belly, money in your purse.

I do this myself, too. When I feel like I'm going to lose my mind, I focus on what I DO have.

Hang in there. Put on your headphones and listen to some tunes on the puter?

Hey, chiy. Sorry you're struggling.

...I busted up my personal property last night because I couldn't control my anger. I snapped. I don't do that often. I guess I feel okay...now...sort of...

I had to keep my parents out of my room last night because I was in a rage. They heard me throwing things around and tried to get in. I was a scary person to be around last night so I kept them out.

I wish I had a way to help you. Just know you're not alone. I hope you feel better soon.

:yeah: ! Let go and let God, Trish. Much easier to turn it over to someone else anyway.

Thursday, December 11, 2008
You are reading from the book Today's Gift

Feelings are everywhere - gentle.
--J. Masai

Throughout the day we experience many feelings. Losing something makes us angry. Fighting with a friend makes us sad. Perhaps we're lonely because no one is home. Getting an unexpected treat makes us happy. Our feelings come and go just like the hours of our lives.

Letting our feelings be whatever they are is good. They'll go away in time. We may not like all feelings; sadness or anger may be uncomfortable, but being human means we'll have many different feelings each day. If we're quiet with them, they'll help us grow and understand others better, and then they will suddenly be gone, replaced perhaps by a feeling we like more.

Will I be able to accept my feelings today whether I like them or not?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families ©1985, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation.

OK..I am going to snap.

WHY??!! When I cant take anymore...More comes?

Now..she wants to drink.
Has a friggin fit and starts spazzin because I told her not to get plastered.

I dont need this **** or anyones slick a$$ mouth right now!

Trish,

Can you take a break and go out for a walk?

Hang in there!

Yes, try to get away for a few minutes, at least.

Remember, this is not you, this is them. You can only control how you react to them.

:Val004::a194::Val004:

Chiynita....

I know that adrenaline feeling when chaos is storming around me and through my veins and wanting to explode, use/drink, scream, or even physically diminish the "problems". I hope at the time you're reading this you have seen your situation calm down! We have no power over people, places and things (I know, not what we want to hear....) but you can do something for yourself.... Breathe is #1. Try to get away from the noise and be still, eyes closed and just focus on breathing for a few. Getting outside (not just in the other room) and looking at different scenery.... possibly taking a walk will help, I'm hoping.

Thank God you are reaching out to us here so we can support you as things seem to be snowballing. It is always darkest before the dawn, Hon, and am hoping your dawn comes soon for you! Keep posting, reaching and reading. You are NOT alone!!!!

Love & Hugs,

Nicki
:ghug3

I won't give you my smart a$$ mouth, Trish :)

Just be good to you - take a walk, do something you like to do, remember to breathe...and
let go of the crap you can't change.

Yeah, it's a biggie, that one.

Sorry I haven't got anything better

:hug:

D

Well..Everyone is gone..she is sleeping. Even the cat wouldnt stop.
It was like I was a magnet for aggravation all day.

Work sucked. Just an all around one of those days where things go wrong.
And the dumbest things. Liek dropping stuff all day. Running into stuff and everything possible is just complicated. We had American Idol people and David Archuleta at our hotel last night. Well I got all their rooms today. And alot of the other housekeepers were mad cause they thought they were going to get big tips. So they were talkin **** about how they do this and they do that and da da da da...Like noone else works around there and they felt like they got cheated.
The same idiots that are always complaining about dumb ****. Want to hurry up and leave everyday. Totally breeched confidentiality with the guests by pestering them for pics and announcing all through the halls who was there. Those people dont want to deal with that crap when they are trying to rest.

I am just sick of the drama BS.



Theres an ice storm outside. Had to borrow money from my aunt for gas. I hate that.

And I dont care if my grams has one drink every now and then. What pissed me off is when I told her not to go nuts with it. She gets all mad and starts an arguement.
Then starts saying stuff to me about what I have done and blah blah blah.

I am glad it is quiet now.

My head is bumpin.

I didnt want to use over this. Its days like this that make me want to rage.

And that is never good.

ANyway..Hopefully all will be calm now. And tomorrow will be better.

Sry for the rant..But it was building. And yes it feels better now.

Thanks for letting us know how the night went, Trish. I'm glad you didn't think of using. Yeah, raging doesn't feel good, but it's better than going back out there using.
You made it. Your Aunt Ro is proud of ya. ;)

Hey there, im glad things are calm now, and yes I'm sure tommorrow will be better.

So glad things are quiet now for you. one day at a time, and tomorrow is a new day.. You didn't drink over it. :) you survived.
Keep venting here when you need to, that is what we are here for, each other in good times and bad.