Welcome to SR and the forum of "newbies" right there with ya!
I'll have to check out your story later, but just wanted to say "hi" and am glad you are here! I'm a binger too, however, through alcohols progression in my life I couldn't cut if off after Fri thru Sun. I became dependent on it 24/7. Thank God you haven't reached that place, and if you truly give it up and quit --- you'll never have to.
This is a great place to let your hair down and get stuff out! We relate and are related to so it's just one big happy family here (okay, maybe a little too dramatic).
Hope to hear more about you! Keep up the posts and reading and reaching!