That old Empty Feeling
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: West Palm Beach, fl
Posts: 24
That old Empty Feeling
As I approach my Day 4, I know that i am a novice in the world of recovery and my true sensory functions will return in due time. I still however have this haunting feeling inside of loneliness and emptiness that i just cannot seem to shake. It make me fearful and afraid to think about tommorow. Ever since I have been clean from my pill addiction I cry everyday and feel sad. I function best at work in the evenings when my mind is occupied. I hope that each day gets a little easier to deal with as time passes.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: West Palm Beach, fl
Posts: 24
Thank You, im sure you are right. I now have to face the root of the issues that cause those feelings and knock them out
, it's scary, but worth the results of freedom from the shackles of fear!!
, it's scary, but worth the results of freedom from the shackles of fear!!
It's time to change!
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: lake tahoe
Posts: 1,025
Thanks for posting and sharing, Courage!
The feelings you're going through are normal for "us" to go through when we're detoxing and just at the few day stages of getting clean. All those emotions are raw and on the surface. Give time - TIME right now and just keep hanging on. Don't quit and give in before the miracle can happen!!! I have only 11 days sober and my head and heart are starting to get a little clearer and seeing some signs of hope in my life. Drinking wasn't the answer and it points to most of the problems I've had and only made things worse.... never better.
Hang in there and keep posting and reading! We want to hear what's going on!
Hugsxoxox,
Nicki
:ghug3
The feelings you're going through are normal for "us" to go through when we're detoxing and just at the few day stages of getting clean. All those emotions are raw and on the surface. Give time - TIME right now and just keep hanging on. Don't quit and give in before the miracle can happen!!! I have only 11 days sober and my head and heart are starting to get a little clearer and seeing some signs of hope in my life. Drinking wasn't the answer and it points to most of the problems I've had and only made things worse.... never better.
Hang in there and keep posting and reading! We want to hear what's going on!
Hugsxoxox,
Nicki
:ghug3
Member
Join Date: Dec 2008
Posts: 150
Have you got any hobbies you can try and focus on?
Try being kind to yourself, say a few - or a lot - of good things about yourself.
I am completely new but I think we can all use support from each other.
Your 4 days already into kicking it. I am day one. So your doing just fine!!
Try being kind to yourself, say a few - or a lot - of good things about yourself.
I am completely new but I think we can all use support from each other.
Your 4 days already into kicking it. I am day one. So your doing just fine!!
It's time to change!
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: lake tahoe
Posts: 1,025
Do you have 1 day or 4 days??? I'm confused from your first and then last post?
Hobbies, Hmmm.... Yeah, I guess (still trying to find some)! I'm a massage therapist who of course hasn't been working (have my own biz) due to my drinking. However, gave a massage the other day (love to do it) and have been volunteering my time at the local food bank/pantry here in Tahoe. Anything to get out of my head! Got my house cleaned, went on a walk with doggie, celebrated my birthday and decorated the house for Christmas. Mind you, all the above mentioned would have taken a year had I not sobered up! It was time for me and I was (am) done... today and hopefully again tomorrow, I pray. I just stay as busy as I can and haven't really slowed down much. I feel muscles that I didn't know existed because they never got worked except my right arm lifting my glass (of booze).
:chatter Just trying to stay out of my head as much as possible, if it's possible!
Hugs,
xoxoxo
Hobbies, Hmmm.... Yeah, I guess (still trying to find some)! I'm a massage therapist who of course hasn't been working (have my own biz) due to my drinking. However, gave a massage the other day (love to do it) and have been volunteering my time at the local food bank/pantry here in Tahoe. Anything to get out of my head! Got my house cleaned, went on a walk with doggie, celebrated my birthday and decorated the house for Christmas. Mind you, all the above mentioned would have taken a year had I not sobered up! It was time for me and I was (am) done... today and hopefully again tomorrow, I pray. I just stay as busy as I can and haven't really slowed down much. I feel muscles that I didn't know existed because they never got worked except my right arm lifting my glass (of booze).
:chatter Just trying to stay out of my head as much as possible, if it's possible!
Hugs,
xoxoxo
It's time to change!
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: lake tahoe
Posts: 1,025
Oh Yeah....
I do go to a few AA mtgs. a week that are small and intimate -- less intimidating for me at this point!
No, I don't say any "sweet nothings" to myself although it's "suggested" I do that. Feels weird for me. I try not to look in the mirror too much either!
I do go to a few AA mtgs. a week that are small and intimate -- less intimidating for me at this point!
No, I don't say any "sweet nothings" to myself although it's "suggested" I do that. Feels weird for me. I try not to look in the mirror too much either!
Member
Join Date: Dec 2008
Posts: 150
Hey Nicki - my post was directed at couragetobeme, thats probably why it sounds a bit weird.
I am in day one. I was referring to couragetobeme being on day 4, not me : )
I am a beauty therapist!!! Are you a beauty therapist who decided to specialise in massage or do you just do massage?
I am in day one. I was referring to couragetobeme being on day 4, not me : )
I am a beauty therapist!!! Are you a beauty therapist who decided to specialise in massage or do you just do massage?
Member
Join Date: Mar 2005
Posts: 1,947
hello courage and welcome
and congradulation on your day 4
i hope you keep it up
you will have to be facing a lot of feelings.....many of us used to avoid our feelings
here's a poem of mine for you:
what do you want to do before you die, my child? (by Ksplash5)
why do you rush when you know there's no race to your death?
why do you blame when the pain is inside you?
why are you running away from your heart right now?
why do you live to be better than others?
why do you wallow in a black hole of not feeling your pain?
why do you breathe without knowing your grace?
why do you parrot when infinity is yours?
why do you accept the non-life you live?
what do you think when silence purrs your soul?
why not follow the bliss during those rare moments
when goodness glows within each beat of one trillion
and of One.
together.
why not receive this breath from the entire universe and its limit-less-ness.
The answer is inside, and between You and Me,
not written in words nor hidden away...
but shining with fierce-ness and strong as a mountain of stone.
if you listen you'll see it within the Light of your Heart .
Then you feel it
and you can sense it more and more.
Or you can smother it and walk alone.
and congradulation on your day 4
i hope you keep it up
you will have to be facing a lot of feelings.....many of us used to avoid our feelings
here's a poem of mine for you:
what do you want to do before you die, my child? (by Ksplash5)
why do you rush when you know there's no race to your death?
why do you blame when the pain is inside you?
why are you running away from your heart right now?
why do you live to be better than others?
why do you wallow in a black hole of not feeling your pain?
why do you breathe without knowing your grace?
why do you parrot when infinity is yours?
why do you accept the non-life you live?
what do you think when silence purrs your soul?
why not follow the bliss during those rare moments
when goodness glows within each beat of one trillion
and of One.
together.
why not receive this breath from the entire universe and its limit-less-ness.
The answer is inside, and between You and Me,
not written in words nor hidden away...
but shining with fierce-ness and strong as a mountain of stone.
if you listen you'll see it within the Light of your Heart .
Then you feel it
and you can sense it more and more.
Or you can smother it and walk alone.
It's time to change!
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: lake tahoe
Posts: 1,025
Good morning Tryingto....
I feel like an idiot!!! LOL! See, everything has to be about me, me, me da**it!!!!
Okay, heads screwed on differently now (hopefully) .... It's a new day.
No, not into being a Beauty Specialist. Went to school to study Massage Therapy, Hot Stone Polarity, Aromatheray, etc. For a somewhat small girl, I've got strong hands (now they need a good workout) and that's where I found my niche. In Tahoe we're limilted on trade schools... in fact there are none up here now except for the Community College.
Originally I'm from So. California where I was a high profile Nat'l Sales Mgr., and it took a lot to adapt to Mountain Life when I came here over 10 years ago. I traded in my 4 inch pumps for hiking boots. The drink came with me, however and started really taking it's toll. Heck, I could go 1 mile down the street to the casinos (which were not in So. Cal before) and drink all I wanted on them. It started off so easy and fun -- Party Hearty! Didn't end there, however, and had to go another several years before hanging up my hat and saying it's just not worth it to live like this anymore. Have 12 days today (again) and feel very fortunate and grateful that I'm not dead, still drinking and can be "present" in life right now.
A good day is hoped for you and all who reads this post today! Remember, we are not alone and are in this TOGETHER!
Tryingto, are you on Day 2, Friend????
Hugs xoxox,
Nicki :ghug3
I feel like an idiot!!! LOL! See, everything has to be about me, me, me da**it!!!!
Okay, heads screwed on differently now (hopefully) .... It's a new day.
No, not into being a Beauty Specialist. Went to school to study Massage Therapy, Hot Stone Polarity, Aromatheray, etc. For a somewhat small girl, I've got strong hands (now they need a good workout) and that's where I found my niche. In Tahoe we're limilted on trade schools... in fact there are none up here now except for the Community College.
Originally I'm from So. California where I was a high profile Nat'l Sales Mgr., and it took a lot to adapt to Mountain Life when I came here over 10 years ago. I traded in my 4 inch pumps for hiking boots. The drink came with me, however and started really taking it's toll. Heck, I could go 1 mile down the street to the casinos (which were not in So. Cal before) and drink all I wanted on them. It started off so easy and fun -- Party Hearty! Didn't end there, however, and had to go another several years before hanging up my hat and saying it's just not worth it to live like this anymore. Have 12 days today (again) and feel very fortunate and grateful that I'm not dead, still drinking and can be "present" in life right now.
A good day is hoped for you and all who reads this post today! Remember, we are not alone and are in this TOGETHER!
Tryingto, are you on Day 2, Friend????
Hugs xoxox,
Nicki :ghug3
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
