SoberStephanie7

Today is my 8th day without a drink. Last time I only made it 11 days so I am anxious to hit that "hump". I have had random thoughts about a drink but for the most part, they are not cravings.

I am trying to figure out why I started drinking again.... aside from being an addict, lol.... I didn't have the kids (I NEVER drink when I have my kids, thankfully) and my husband asked me to watch our business for a couple of hours and I think I felt FREE. No kids... no being stuck at home... a time for a little socializing... and it was easy to go across the street to the only liquor store in town and get two mini vodkas... so I did... and then I wanted to keep that buzz going... so on the way home I got a bigger vodka and waited until the kids were in bed and DH watching TV to have a sip. I told myself it would last over a week.... after passing out that night, I realized the next morning that I had had HALF of it... and I poured the rest out... but that didn't stop me from getting more for the next night... And I wonder why I do that? I don't feel GOOD when I drink. I am not HAPPY when I drink. I am mean to my husband and say terrible things to him... and then don't remember saying them...

Anyway, it's day 8 and I am having a GOOD DAY and that is what counts... I am so happy to be sober TODAY!!!

Anna

Hi,

It's what addicts do. It's not logical and it doesn't make sense. But that's what we do.

I'm glad you're back on track.

Mariposa18

Stay Strong and try and remember this clear thinking on days when you want to drink. Do you have a Journal? I've found it helps me to write things down, it helps with the processing of my feelings.

Good Luck and keep moving forward~