It's my Birthday, where's my presents???....
It's time to change!
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Join Date: Nov 2008
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It's my Birthday, where's my presents???....
Hello SR Family,
I've kind'a been dreading today! Turning another year older poses many doubts in my mind like, "Can I actually stay sober THIS year"???, "Look at your past, you can't do it"!!! -- and the negative storm moves in and wipes out anything positive with all the "chatter" swirling in my head.
Why is it so easy to offer encouragement to others but have such a hard time believing for myself that I can do this too? That maybe I could have this wonderful life if I could & would just stay sober???... long enough!
Crrraaazzzy! I DO KNOW that not drinking today is the best present I can give myself -- Day 10 -- wooohooo!... now I'm a double digit! I'm actually a pretty positive optimistic person when I'm not boozing it up and do try to see the glass "half full".... but the underlying truth towards myself is not so pretty and hopeful! I'll give "time" - TIME today, Lord knows the clock is ticking.... Have a great day guys and gals!!!
Luv n Hugz,
Nicki:ghug2
I've kind'a been dreading today! Turning another year older poses many doubts in my mind like, "Can I actually stay sober THIS year"???, "Look at your past, you can't do it"!!! -- and the negative storm moves in and wipes out anything positive with all the "chatter" swirling in my head.
Why is it so easy to offer encouragement to others but have such a hard time believing for myself that I can do this too? That maybe I could have this wonderful life if I could & would just stay sober???... long enough!
Crrraaazzzy! I DO KNOW that not drinking today is the best present I can give myself -- Day 10 -- wooohooo!... now I'm a double digit! I'm actually a pretty positive optimistic person when I'm not boozing it up and do try to see the glass "half full".... but the underlying truth towards myself is not so pretty and hopeful! I'll give "time" - TIME today, Lord knows the clock is ticking.... Have a great day guys and gals!!!
Luv n Hugz,
Nicki:ghug2
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Happy Happy Birthday day! 7Congrats on the sober time and the gift of "not drinking" that you have given yourself and have faith that you will continue to do so this year!
It's time to change!
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Thanks, you guys n gals out there -- and I LOVE my bouquet 10 Storm (how'd you know I love roses)...?
So far so good! After posting earlier I really didn't know how to spend my day sooooo, went down to our local newspaper, developed an ad for in-home massage to be circulated in the Tahoe basin (I'm a massage therapist) and then went to one of our local food pantry/banks and donated my time putting together food items for families in need. I feel blessed today.
Drinking is not in the forecast and I'm feeling a bit hopeful and what's that feeling I'm feeling....??? Hmmm, happy?! Wow, it didn't feel like this 11 days ago as I was hugging the porcelain throne.
Thank you all for being there for me! I'm grateful I stumbled across this site (there are no accidents or coincidences)!
I'll check in later. Later! Hugs & xoxoxox,
Nicki:bounce
So far so good! After posting earlier I really didn't know how to spend my day sooooo, went down to our local newspaper, developed an ad for in-home massage to be circulated in the Tahoe basin (I'm a massage therapist) and then went to one of our local food pantry/banks and donated my time putting together food items for families in need. I feel blessed today.
Drinking is not in the forecast and I'm feeling a bit hopeful and what's that feeling I'm feeling....??? Hmmm, happy?! Wow, it didn't feel like this 11 days ago as I was hugging the porcelain throne.
Thank you all for being there for me! I'm grateful I stumbled across this site (there are no accidents or coincidences)!
I'll check in later. Later! Hugs & xoxoxox,
Nicki:bounce
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