amatorre

Hi everyone,

I'm new to this forum. I need support, can't do this alone. I've tried, and it isn't working. I feel a huge spiritual void. I am not authentic. I isolate myself.

I'm ready for a transformation in my life, a huge one. I want peace, happiness, friendship, contentment, etc., because I honestly don't feel like I have it in my life. I need to learn how to live again. Somehow, I've lost it.

I'm 32, travel for a living in a job I don't love, am in a relationship with a wonderful woman that I don't love, and generally leading a life I don't love. I've forgotten how to love. So, I drink.

I wanted to say hi. I am looking forward to reading your stories and feedback on here. I am ready to try anything new.

Thanks, Greg

lostbutterfly

Hi Greg. Keep reading, keep posting, we're all here for you!

Anna

Hi Greg,

Welcome!

I think we all need support to accomplish the changes in our lives that we want. That's why we're here.

Take a look around and read and be inspired!

Ananda

the first step toward that new life and all that change is to put down the drinking and drugging.

Not drinking or taking drugs has changed my life so much in the last 15 months. I remember I kept asking people why did it take so long for me to stop.

Have you already stopped? if not consulting a dr. is a good idea and seeing what medical needs you might need.

If you are already clean and sober, then starting to make the changes is the next step...but baby steps! it took me 15 mos to get where I am. some changes were fairly quick and i had to find gratitude for that and some were slow and that took alot of encouragement and support and hard work on my part.

Please keep sharing :ghug3

Midas

Glad you're here!

Dee74

Anandas right Greg - the first thing is to stop the drinking - it'll keep you in the rut, and keep you down.

I used to drink all day everyday - my life's not perfect now, but it doesn't need to be - I've found the peace and happiness that you spoke of...some days even the contentment LOL

it's a long and hard journey - but it's worth it

welcome!
D

shanman422

Welcome Greg... this is a GREAT place for support!! Keep reading and posting!

I'm 25 days sober today... I honestly wouldn't have been able say that if it wasn't for coming here every day! :bounce

Shannon

Dean62

I couldn't do it alone either. I relate to everything in your post. This is a great place for support. I haven't had a drink since I came here over 9 months ago so I know it can be done.

I'm glad you found us and am looking forward to hearing more from you.

CarolD

Welcome to our recovery community

I too made changes when I decided drinking
was no longer helping me do a darn thing.
In fact...
it was making me detest the woman I had become.
Depression is why I began AA recovery.

Good to see you here ..

Hevyn

Hi Greg - it's great that you're so self-aware and know things need to change. At 32 I was numbing myself every day and was oblivious to the misery that awaited down the road. I've found acceptance, love and wisdom here on SR that I never dreamed could exist on "just a website". I don't have any friends in in my daily life that I can truly bare my soul to, but I have friends here who always understand and manage to say just the right thing to keep me from feeling isolated. Keep sharing your feelings and we'll be here to help. Congratulations on your new beginning.

bumble2008123

HI greg and welcome! I'm new here too and everyone has been incredibly kind. Keep it up!

Latte

Welcome. SR has really been a great tool to help me stay clean and sober, but more that that..to help me enjoy my life again.

Stubborn1

Don't do it alone. Make a buttload of friends in AA, church and here. Surrounding yourself isn't a bad thing.
If one church doesn't work for you then church hop until you find one that suits you.
Baby steps, one day at a time. We are here to help. You are not alone.