rak

Hi there,
My name is Ruth. I'm addicted to pot and pills. I haven't been clean that long. To be honest, the last time I used was just a couple hours ago. I saw Celebrity Rehab on television and VH1. I spent 3 hours watching different episodes. It influenced me to take a look at myself and usage. I have been in recovery before. This is my third time trying. A part of me knows I have a problem. Another part of me is trying to tell me otherwise. Basically, the diseased side is trying to win the battle. It has for several years. However, I'm to the point of getting tired of it. Also, some of what I saw on CR scared the heck out of me.

Ruth

Jules62

Hi Ruth and welcome to SR!

I understand that addict voice.I never did drugs in any big way but alcohol is my addiction and it's the same powerful temptation in the end.

I'm glad you found us and I'm really glad you're aware this isn't the way you want to live.You can change.No one is beyond help.

There is hope.You don't have to keep living like this.

Please keep posting and know you're among friends here who understand.I'm glad you joined us,

Julesxox

Dee74

Hey Ruth...

I did pot for a lot of years but alcohol was my main drug. I struggled for a long time but I never gave up - in the end I think we owe ourselves that.

Hope you stick around and post more. This is a great place for support and advice.

welcome!
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puterdude

Ruth, we all know it is difficult to end addictions. For me the difficult part is during sobriety, the issues in my life become clear again, and it is those issues that caused me to abuse alcohol in the first place. To me a willingness to feel the pain in our lives is an important step in moving toward permanent sobriety. Many of us are uncomfortable with change in our lives. Choosing sobriety is a huge change...I have found that it is simply easier to stay the course of doing the wrong things...that way I don't have to take risks to improve my life.

I'm choosing sobriety. I know there is a better life in store without booze.

Anna

Hi Ruth,

The addict mind is such a powerful force.

But, you can get through this. There is lots of support here.

Rella927

Welcome to SR Ruth!

Please check out our other forums and the "Substance" abuse forum-there are stickies at the top of the forum that are filled with a wealth of information.

There is a lot of support here and we are glad that you have joined our community! Please know you are not alone in this battle and it can be done!

Time2Surrender

Welcome to SoberRecovery

Aysha

CarolD

Welcome....

rak

Thank you for the warm welcome and support!

So far, so good. I've been clean for a day and a half. No major physical withdrawal aside from a bit of a headache and loss of appetite. It's mostly mental.