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Recovering
Hi guys
I suffer from a severe depression.
No drama. I just want to say it's gonna take me some time to get well, so i'll be around more for support, and i know i'll be fine in some time now i've admitted it.
You know, i've lived every day of my life till today destroying myself. It might sound impossible to change everything and find peace within me, but i got no other choice, cuz giving up is no longer an option.
I actually have a future now
I suffer from a severe depression.
No drama. I just want to say it's gonna take me some time to get well, so i'll be around more for support, and i know i'll be fine in some time now i've admitted it.
You know, i've lived every day of my life till today destroying myself. It might sound impossible to change everything and find peace within me, but i got no other choice, cuz giving up is no longer an option.
I actually have a future now
i've had many times with depression. great to hear of your "exposing" it to the world. that can help'
here is a poem that i wrote while in a terrible depression. it ends on a positive.
In the Palace of Torment
Alone in the day
midst the beat of the world
He is lost in a curse
of dis-ease and depression
ever missing the joy of the moment
His story is gone
his past an illusion
of regrets and lost chances
and dreams traded in for reality
no longer creating his destiny
For he is stuck in a struggle
to be like everyone else
scared to be different
and afraid to be seen
by the merciless judge of our culture
Afraid that others will think him
a loser, a coward, a freak, and a waste
to be deserted and scorned
as an odd sort of breed
who is ignored and left to wither away
But if he’d let go
of the worry and fear
that reside in his palace of torment
then he could become his authentic self
and soar through each day
towards the Light of his Wonder
towards the Dream in his Soul
towards the Peace that is given
to each life of love that God holds in his hands
-ksplash
here is a poem that i wrote while in a terrible depression. it ends on a positive.
In the Palace of Torment
Alone in the day
midst the beat of the world
He is lost in a curse
of dis-ease and depression
ever missing the joy of the moment
His story is gone
his past an illusion
of regrets and lost chances
and dreams traded in for reality
no longer creating his destiny
For he is stuck in a struggle
to be like everyone else
scared to be different
and afraid to be seen
by the merciless judge of our culture
Afraid that others will think him
a loser, a coward, a freak, and a waste
to be deserted and scorned
as an odd sort of breed
who is ignored and left to wither away
But if he’d let go
of the worry and fear
that reside in his palace of torment
then he could become his authentic self
and soar through each day
towards the Light of his Wonder
towards the Dream in his Soul
towards the Peace that is given
to each life of love that God holds in his hands
-ksplash
Oi Nuno, addressing depression takes patience and courage. Congratulations on making this decision, it's a big step that will surely pay off. I've suffered from depression for a long time, PM me if you want to talk about different approaches for treatment. Also, be sure to be gentle on yourself, and hold on to your glimmer of hope
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Nuno my dear sweet friend who I'am blessed to have crossed paths with My brother suffered with depression a very very long time-and yes as Matt stated this is so true and I commend you for taking that leap and know that you have the support of your SR Family with you every step of the way!
Love you mucho Nuno!
addressing depression take patience & courage
Love you mucho Nuno!
I was going to say "fellow sufferer" as I have the chemical imbalance of
bipolar type I. But I believe I will say "fellow walker on the path of miracles",
because this is what helps me today. My attitude makes all the difference
Nuno. I refuse to let this disease beat me.
I am so glad you are here...
We are in this together..and we are going be okay.
Hugs and prayers
P.S.
Ksplash
Absolutley awesome poem..
Thank you!
bipolar type I. But I believe I will say "fellow walker on the path of miracles",
because this is what helps me today. My attitude makes all the difference
Nuno. I refuse to let this disease beat me.
I am so glad you are here...
We are in this together..and we are going be okay.
Hugs and prayers
P.S.
Ksplash
Absolutley awesome poem..
Thank you!
Nuno - I began IOP on Monday for the severe depression I suffer from as part of being bipolar 2.
I have been feeling so worthless for a few months now and once I sought help, things are beginning to look up.
I mentioned in IOP how much time I spent in bed with no energy what so ever, and the worthless feeling that go along with that. She asked me if I would have felt worthless had I broken my back and was bedridden. Of course I answered no to that question. She said the negetive thinking needs to go as I do have a illness.
Depression is every bit as debilatating as any other illness. But there is helpout there Nuno.
I have been feeling so worthless for a few months now and once I sought help, things are beginning to look up.
I mentioned in IOP how much time I spent in bed with no energy what so ever, and the worthless feeling that go along with that. She asked me if I would have felt worthless had I broken my back and was bedridden. Of course I answered no to that question. She said the negetive thinking needs to go as I do have a illness.
Depression is every bit as debilatating as any other illness. But there is helpout there Nuno.
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